I took some time to think back of 2010.
I can't really give a word or a phase of 2010, but, i think that alot of events has happened.
I think i'll start off with what i remembered.
Jan- My results for ITE wasn't that good, went for open house, looked around and thought that i have a passion for arts. Not really arts, but animation. I was also serving my Lg faithfully. Growing myself, investing in people's life.
Feb- Received army letter of enlisting on the 28th of feb. I deferred because i applied for poly. Send portfolio.
March- Received results for poly application. All failed even RP. I went to look for NAFA and laselle. I found a course in media and design in NAFA. And decided to study and take up the course due to the money i have to study for the course.
April- Went to pay and seat for the test in order to get into the course.
May- Received a letter from NAFA that i can't get into it, no reason and results.
June- Clueless, donno where to go, lost.
July- CMPB letter came again. Guess i was going for army. At the same time, water baptize on the 11th. Really wanna commit my life to God. Also PI was one of the highlight for this year too. Spend alot of time practicing and all. Made new friends too.
August- PI was awesome. Saw Civil defence letter 2 weeks before 7sep, enlistment date.
Sep-Enlisted to SCDF, scared, anxious, exicted.
Oct- Still a recruit. Training was tiring, waking up was a crazy thing to do. Discipline level up. I wanted to be a firefighter, after the last interview failed, clueless and lost again.
Nov- Continue with training, though of SRB, but heard that it was shit work.
Dec- Posted out as a Provost, a sentry provost. When for Fireproof camp. God spoke a hell lot to me. Family, and my future, being an engineer.
All this while, i had been praying, that times i wasted my time away before NS. God's plan was so hard to be seen, so uncertain. Until dec.
So many things i wanted to do. I guess it wasn't God's.
I wanna know your plans God!
Will be moving on to PolyDiNS group.
A few questions pop in my head.
-How have i impacted people's life in youth? (Who, how)
-How much have i poured out? (Im i willing to give more?)
-What's next?
I wanna to have clarity in my life, i gotta find it in God. Now as a provost, life cycle is really boring. Just standing at the sentry, sitting at the desk.. Doing my duty and off duty. Its a routine.
At times, a little tiring.
I need to make much more effort to make time for God.
And now, of cos i'll miss my youth friends.
But this is my decision and i really have to stay strong and keep running.
Last night, i went jogging with Hua xiang, kenny and luan chun. At the last 400m + -.. I told hua xiang i was gonna choing. Open up my steps and just run. Towards the end, i was really out of breath soon, but i keep telling myself not to slow down, but the other side of my was telling myself that i was tired and just stop and walk 1st. As i ran, i pushed and just keep running.
The last about 100m, i told HX, let sprint.
I sprint with my all.
At the end, i told HX.
"Never slow down, once you slow down you confirm die 1"
At that moment, i was thinking of my christ walk.
Did i slow down in 2010?
That moments, i did. The times when i slack and being mis focus due to my laziness. I guess enlisting and serving NS i really a good time to train me.
I gotta be thankful for every moment of 2010.
There were really good and bad times. Times when things sucked, and when things seems so alive.
I have to look forward to 2011. No matter how much i wanna ORD. But i can still do something.
3 things in 2011.
-Be grateful and thankful for every event that happens in my life. (Stop complaining)
-Depend on God more than my own strength and wisdom. (Look to God instead of the problem)
-Spend every moment with God. (Make full use of my time for the kingdom.)
In a way, this is my new year goals.
God help me in this, i can't do it on my own. Sustain me till the end.
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