Night duty.

At the sentry post again. I was kinda tired just now. But im using my laptop now.

Ha, just now at 10pm. Did prowling.

Stupid seniors tried to scare me.

Night prowling is damn damn scary sia.

But thank God nothing happened or whatever.

I kept praying and praying. Ha.

So far, i think my 1st 3 months here wouldn't be as bad as i think. My rota mates are not that bad.

Hope that i can be new influence to them. It's like every single one speak vulgarity.

Listening to Just the way you are now. 4 more hours till i off duty! TA HAN.

And im also thinking about how will this coming sat be. As i'll be joining the polydins service.

Ha, my last youth service was over.

It wasn't really emotional, but i dearly miss my friends there.

I recalled so much things i did in youth.

I remembered when i 1st stepped into nexus.

And till now where i am.

I recall the times when i really really gave my all.

I think the peak of my ministry was when i was leading st.gabs and sa.

Ha, everyweek, everyday. Thinking about my people.

Outreach, plan CG, plan meeting, teaching everything i know, depend on God every single time.

Man.

I really slowed down.

I don't want to slow down anymore.

I wanna go faster.

It's is discipline? Laziness?

God, i really wanna love you more.

Help me to realize that im nothing without you.

Never let my love for you be distanced ever.

Test me in this God, so that my love for you will be stronger.

Remind me of your love everytime, God i wanna depend on you more.