Dan Lee Chee Hwee's amazing life with christ :)

I need your strength God.

2011-10-07T03:03:00.003+08:00

Ha, it's been a long while since i updated my blog...

It's a little ironic to say my life is amazing..

Really alot of events happening in my life as i serve my NS.

This 1 year and 1month has really been hell for me..

Hell in a sense tiring, defeating and draining.

Honestly, i can't wait to ORD and say, i have finished the worst 2 years of my life.

There's a lot of factors of why i talk like that.

I know i am a guy, and i shouldn't complain and just suck it up.

But seriously..i think i have feelings too...

I ta han and tank for too long already.

I think sometimes i am being too nice to people..and people starts to climb over my head.

And that feeling sucks.

Maybe it's training me to suck my thumb longer? I don't know, but i buay tong liao.

Camp is really shitty and it's not just the job..its the bloody people..

Basket..I got sabo-ed again on tuesday afternoon, and when im about 1 hour away from going home, my CPL who is a provost IC confined me and my junior because for not checking 1 bag!

And the problem is! I didn't see, but my junior did..and he didn't went to check.

Then become my problem...but that's not it..

He confined us both of a total of 2 hours..

WTS, seriously, where the hell got such thing...NSF confine NSF?!

That's really too much already. And on that day, my RSM(my supervisor) wasn't in camp..

I mean can close one eye 1 what, must we go to such extent?

And the thing is, we are not enemies or what.. we were all along ok with one another.

Then suddenly you come up with this kind of shitty stun? What are you trying to prove?!

Nvm this crap, after that, i was lucky enough that the DO(duty officer) was nice enough to sign our confinement forms early and allow us to leave camp early.

The next day, i was having slight cough but also lazy to go for work..

I wanted to take MC for the day and then they all started to sms and tell me that im not allowed to take..I was like, i am not even on MC restrict and i only took 9 MCs since recruit!

Then they told me, order from RSM. What to do? Suck thumb lor.

Took time-chit, reached camp and my RSM started shooting me. Asking all sort of stupid questions, asking me what time i went home and all..then i told him, the DO already signed my confinement form then i go home la..then he started to bullshit around saying i can only leave after the confinement time is over, and asked me WHO SAYS..

how the hell i know? Am i the CD act?

And asked me why i reach camp so late after seeing doctor..

i didn't told him la..i took my time...

But lim pei stay in toa payoh leh!!!

Basket..

Nothing to say already, say my performance like shit..

really........

This is just for this week....

Guess life 's like that, and honestly, i can't really find anybody who really understands me..

So many of my friends haven't when through NS and i couldn't find people who went through what i went through..

But who else can i look to? Only God.

It's really not easy and it really requires alot of patience to wait upon God for a reply.

Sometimes, we need direct encouragement or message? right?

Then when i don't hear from God, i try to seek help from others, but im just like that..I don't dare to bother people or trouble them..and if i do, they don't know what im going through..then they just say, hang on, hold on, jia you. But what i really need is advice..a verse..a prayer..

Man, i know..im like a girl now..

Haha, i gotta laugh about it, put on a smile and trust God.

Seriously, God, you're all i have left.

I'll do my best, and can you assure me?

I really need you to be on my side. Assure that you're with me ok?

I can't go on without you already..

I guess this stupid NS has broken me down to understand more too..

God, please understand that i am weak, but remind me that you are strong.

I need your strength.

True friend.

2011-10-07T02:56:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i wonder, who's my real and true friends? Friends who drops you a message, a simple message. Asking; "how are you today?" , or encourages you, or simply stand by you.

But the sad truth is..our human friends or even family members can't be there for us 24/7, they can't see you 24/7, they're not you.

But only Jesus. God, i really long to see you. I long to touch you...

God, only you know what i am going through..i already had a honest conversation with you. I really really need you God...

You and I know that i am weak...

Provide the way and provide for me. In you i trust.

Lost and found.

2011-08-11T16:35:00.003+08:00

Today was a crazy day yet again. This post may sound familiar, haha.

I am so careless.. I only found out that my bag was opened at CCK mrt when i alighted on my way to camp.

Searched for my wallet and couldn't find it. Was in a rush so i just choing to camp.

Only double confirmed that i've lost my wallet during lunch time.

But God is just so faithful and good.

I took half day leave to find for it. Prayed like never before...

I always remember of not doubting when we pray and we must pray in faith!!!

Hold and behold!!

My wallet was found by a bus captain where i dropped it at the bus stop i alighted!

Like wow!

Just so amazed by God!

Thank God for this experience!

And also, mediacorp came to division for filming and i saw janet aw! Up close! She's really pretty..ha..

And i managed to touch a snake today. What a crazy day..

Thank God for everything. :D

27/7/2011

2011-07-27T21:25:00.002+08:00

Action has meaning only in relationship and without understanding relationship, action on any level will only breed conflict. The understanding of relationship is infinitely more important than the search for any plan of action.

“Unless your heart, your soul, and your whole being are behind every decision you make, the words from your mouth will be empty, and each action will be meaningless. Truth and confidence are the roots of happiness.”

IPPT

2011-07-03T04:38:00.003+08:00

Anyway, IPPT coming up, needa train like mad liao.

I gotta at least pass! If i don't..Gotta go RT and i'll not get my monthly $100 skill allowance!!!

That's 1.2k for a year!!! Cannot fail..

Best is if i get sliver! ha, $100 more.

God help me. :D

Time to blog.

2011-07-03T04:20:00.003+08:00

It's 4.20am in the morning, and im stuck at this sentry post till 8am.

It's been a long time since i did such a long shift in the morning. Ha, due to Moh and Sathish leave..

Life has been really normal for me for the pass few months.

Slowly waiting for time to pass. Till the day i can shout "ORD LOH!"

Yeah, till that day..It'll come...

But i want my life to be useful.... !!!

Man.

Past few weeks ago found out about MDIS Diploma course in account.

Looks like a good deal.

6.5months course for $4.9k.

Fast and consider cheap for a short course..

But im unsure if it will be a good course anot and to really confirm is account what i really wanna do for the rest of my life?

Yeah..

Need to make good decisions..

But $4.9 is ok to try with..By the time i ORD i can work full time to earn for my own school fees like for 7-8months? I think it'll be enough..

Still unsure of my future man God...

At the mean time...I think i should take up driving license to make myself more useful or more equipped ..

Gotta spend my time wisely..

Like Alvin said, even if there's 25hours a day, will still complain there's not enough time.

We have to make full use of our time..

God, i really need you with me by my side.

I know that i am weak and you are strong.

I am never good, i am never strong by my own.

I need you God, badly...

Speak to my lord, i pray for spiritual mindness in me.

Help me lord. I need you.

Out alone.

2011-05-12T15:03:00.000+08:00

Ha, im a PS just acia now.

Woke up kinda late today, at 12. I went in and out of my house 3 times. The 1st time was because i forgot my ez-link card and i didn't felt my brother's bag was comfortable. Ha, so i went up and change the bag.

The 2nd time was, i went down again and i remembered that i forgot to take my ez-link card again!

Felt so dumb.

Went to TPY to cut my hair, i was sweating quite badly, i asked for hair wash and hair cut. Ha, the hair dresser asked me if i wanna wash my hair 1st, i told him i'll be going out, so i would like to wash my hair after cutting.

Ha, i guess he asked cos i was sweating quite bad. Ha, joke.

Hair cut wasn't that good...I think i should just go with malet. But kinda boring..

So, then went to the pasam malam near by to get chicken wing and the red hot dog. Ha, i donno how to pronouns it in chinese, so i told the stalk owner i want to red hot dog and chicken wing, ha, joke, she laugh secretly at me, and the thing is i ordered in chinese. My chinese really CMI..

Later, trained down to Bishan to get renoma shirts for me and my brother, then i remembered that i wanted to make a new pair of specs. Because i've been using this pair for 2 years plus already...Ha..

Check up for my eye and realized that my eyesight became worst. Man..

Spend $168 with $40 capital land vouchers on the specs. Quite happy with it, ha.

Now having lunch at just acia, using my lappy.

Btw, saw jacky while i was on my way here. Forgot to take a picture with him! Man. Ha.

Quite awesome to do the day alone, feel much more relax. :D

Reflection.

2011-05-12T00:48:00.000+08:00

Long time no blog..again!

Went out with Alvin today, had a long chat and sharing time. ha.

Lots of things in my head. Anyway, just came back home from a jog. Cui man, really haven't exercise for a long while.

Alvin shared about a few topics today.

T1: Up to today, why are you still a christian.

T2: His trip to India.

T3: Our conviction, why the cost of all this?

T4: Lives under us.

T5: N's life, persistent.

That's all i can remember.

Will be spending time alone tmr. :D

Taking as a day to relax and chill with myself and God.

God, speak to me.

Good night. :D

God, we need you.

2011-02-24T01:09:00.001+08:00

Only God decides when we leave this planet and to join him. But does prolonging your stay on earth helps you? In products, medicines, they helps us. Better is it really a need? When people promotes their product to you, and ensures you of their products, you kinda believe them, and they prove it to you. Should u get it?

In the same way, God is like the product.
But medicine and products only helps you in your earthly body.
God gives you eternal life.
How much more can God show me that only he can complete me.
My family and people needs to know that God is all that we need.
God, i understand now.
Do your work in us.

This is all i have to say for today. 24/2/2011.

The day when my brother starts to take hold of this business that he's working in.

God i pray that this wouldn't harm us.

Help us God.

2 face people.

2011-02-02T03:01:00.002+08:00

I just found out how people do things in this sociality.

Backstabbing, saboing..

People can do anything...Anything! To get what they want in this sociality.

Money, Fame, Favour, Respect..

Whatever..

This are things that people like and of cause..

Everyone wants to be recognized , including me of cause.

Today, i really got screwed infront of all my seniors, excluding howard who was on leave.

1 of my senior who was very nice to me, today pumped me because of my boots.

Ok..

Maybe because im in this vocation for quite awhile so i guess im being pumped for that.

On the other hand, it could be just an reminder instead, but no, got to go through the hard way.

Fine, i think thats ok. But, as i was going for lunch. There this clerk i have in my guard room. He's also a CPL, a senior in a way. I ask my other senior to cover my duty, as i was waiting for him to come down, the CPL ask me to go for lunch 1st. Then he said he'll cover..Ok.. So i went for lunch, but i went for 30mins, which was quite long to them. I had lunch for 30mins before. But..today the senior who was very nice to me before..Asked me why did i went for lunch and didn't informed anyone. Ok, i said the CPL covered for me. Then he asked me if he was a provost. I said no, but i didn't even have the chance to say that he allowed me. Then they just keep shooting me, saying why did i took so long to eat and all.

In the end, i got pump again.

Its not really about how much pumping i get...But no one is there cover or explain for me. Including the CPL. Nice.. How much worst can my NS life be? We are all NSF, yet, they are doing nothing to improve any relationships. Everyone just cares about doing less work and being more of a BOSS. This is the world.

Then..there were some commotion over a lost visitor pass. Then the seniors of cause point the arrow to me. Of cause who else? There another guy from my intake, and they never blame him. Only me. I don't know, im i easy to bully because im too nice? Do i really have to show the other side of me? How frustrating..

Then this senior keep telling me about the bad things of a senior behind the senior's back, and then, tells me another story behind another senior's back. How screwed up is this place?

I don't know whens the arrow gonna come to me and shoot me down.

So much backstabbing and saboing within them. Im getting all the blame.

Ha, Im i really suppose to do something about it God?

It seems impossible, untill they all ORD.

Ha, i think thats the time when all this things will stop, i hope.

If people like them don't come to this place.

But, i feel really like shit being sabo-ed and blamed.

I've never had such feelings for years..

Is sucking up the only solution?

Because sucking up looks easier for the other guy from the same intake as me.

People work with people they like.

They never care who the hell are you. As long you help them.

I guess i have to go the extra mile. Although i really hate serve my NS.

I guess its now no a total waste of time.

I get to learn how people work in this sociality.

God guide me.

Spending power....

2011-01-19T23:30:00.003+08:00

I kinda just got my pay last week...

CNY shopping list:

~~Razer mouse~~

~~Fred perry shoes.~~

~~Fred perry polo.~~

~~Pull up bar.~~

~~Braun buffel wallet.~~

1 Denim shirt

~~DrDenim jeans.~~

~~2 Threadless t-shits.~~

1 more branded jeans.

G-shock watch.

DC shoes.

Looks like online shopping is still much cheaper. :D

But im i spending too much? Shit...

Good and bad experiences.

2011-01-08T18:42:00.002+08:00

This 3 days was kinda relaxing until today in camp.

Thursday, went to poly open house with Daryl, Dylan, Gabriel, Hui ling, Luan Chun and my brother.

Another disappointing moment again.

Every course in poly that i can qualify requires 3.5GPA. When i only have 2.9.

Only SP, 4 courses allows 3.0. Which i still can't qualify..

And there are no engineering course available for me.

Man, that as when i started questioning God and myself and the prophecy.

Engineering seems...Out..

But yesterday. I went to watch movie with vivian, rachel, emily, jolene, zi kang and edison.

Then i got to know Edison more.

He's from the NS group that i'll be joining when i move on.

He shared alot of his life to me and i also shared as much.

Then i told him also about my future. My studies, my family and also the prophecy.

He questioned me a really simple question. But it struck to me alot.

He asked if i prayed about my decisions.

My choices.

The truth is, i did. But not as desperate.

He shared to me that where he is today as a self-empolyed website designer, IT personal. Is because of his prayer and a confirmation from God.

He shared to me he prayed for 3hours just for a reply.

The last time i prayed for 3hours...

Man. I think it was sec 4 or the 1st year of ITE.

The truth is, im really worried for my future.

I really wanna know what God has installed for me.

There's so many things i wanna do.

But im so unsure.

I need to pray about it.

Today at work. I really got a bad impression from myself to my seniors.

I don't know why, but whatever i do is not enough and it not up to standard.

I make really alot of mistakes.

I made 2 really bad 1s today.

During prowling, i was doing as usual. I missed 2 fake bombs which were planted in the camp..

And my seniors didn't pump me, but they told me off.

They said everytime i come to work, my mind is not there and i always look like im in lack of sleep.

Man, although i seriously hate the job, but i still think i should set an example and do my best.

I wanna shine your light God.

I need pray and really depend on God..

At the moment now, im thinking of taking O levels.

But the symbols have all changed and i haven't touch an exercise book for 3 years?

Man, it'll really be tough.

And poly will not be easy to get in.

Another though is that if i get into poly.

I will work real hard and change my course by the end of 1st year.

God, its in your hands.

Sometimes i think to myself, God, why don't you just bring me to heaven. Or just tell me the answers.

But, this is when i need God most and i need to depend on him the most.

God help me and lead me in this.

YOU

2011-01-04T04:14:00.001+08:00

Night duty.

2011-01-04T03:42:00.005+08:00

At the sentry post again. I was kinda tired just now. But im using my laptop now.

Ha, just now at 10pm. Did prowling.

Stupid seniors tried to scare me.

Night prowling is damn damn scary sia.

But thank God nothing happened or whatever.

I kept praying and praying. Ha.

So far, i think my 1st 3 months here wouldn't be as bad as i think. My rota mates are not that bad.

Hope that i can be new influence to them. It's like every single one speak vulgarity.

Listening to Just the way you are now. 4 more hours till i off duty! TA HAN.

And im also thinking about how will this coming sat be. As i'll be joining the polydins service.

Ha, my last youth service was over.

It wasn't really emotional, but i dearly miss my friends there.

I recalled so much things i did in youth.

I remembered when i 1st stepped into nexus.

And till now where i am.

I recall the times when i really really gave my all.

I think the peak of my ministry was when i was leading st.gabs and sa.

Ha, everyweek, everyday. Thinking about my people.

Outreach, plan CG, plan meeting, teaching everything i know, depend on God every single time.

Man.

I really slowed down.

I don't want to slow down anymore.

I wanna go faster.

It's is discipline? Laziness?

God, i really wanna love you more.

Help me to realize that im nothing without you.

Never let my love for you be distanced ever.

Test me in this God, so that my love for you will be stronger.

Remind me of your love everytime, God i wanna depend on you more.

2011

2011-01-02T17:28:00.003+08:00

It 2011 already. Im at sentry post now. Using my laptop. Ha, amazing, its not bad as i thought it would be.

I took some time to think back of 2010.

I can't really give a word or a phase of 2010, but, i think that alot of events has happened.

I think i'll start off with what i remembered.

Jan- My results for ITE wasn't that good, went for open house, looked around and thought that i have a passion for arts. Not really arts, but animation. I was also serving my Lg faithfully. Growing myself, investing in people's life.

Feb- Received army letter of enlisting on the 28th of feb. I deferred because i applied for poly. Send portfolio.

March- Received results for poly application. All failed even RP. I went to look for NAFA and laselle. I found a course in media and design in NAFA. And decided to study and take up the course due to the money i have to study for the course.

April- Went to pay and seat for the test in order to get into the course.

May- Received a letter from NAFA that i can't get into it, no reason and results.

June- Clueless, donno where to go, lost.

July- CMPB letter came again. Guess i was going for army. At the same time, water baptize on the 11th. Really wanna commit my life to God. Also PI was one of the highlight for this year too. Spend alot of time practicing and all. Made new friends too.

August- PI was awesome. Saw Civil defence letter 2 weeks before 7sep, enlistment date.

Sep-Enlisted to SCDF, scared, anxious, exicted.

Oct- Still a recruit. Training was tiring, waking up was a crazy thing to do. Discipline level up. I wanted to be a firefighter, after the last interview failed, clueless and lost again.

Nov- Continue with training, though of SRB, but heard that it was shit work.

Dec- Posted out as a Provost, a sentry provost. When for Fireproof camp. God spoke a hell lot to me. Family, and my future, being an engineer.

All this while, i had been praying, that times i wasted my time away before NS. God's plan was so hard to be seen, so uncertain. Until dec.

So many things i wanted to do. I guess it wasn't God's.

I wanna know your plans God!

Will be moving on to PolyDiNS group.

A few questions pop in my head.

-How have i impacted people's life in youth? (Who, how)

-How much have i poured out? (Im i willing to give more?)

-What's next?

I wanna to have clarity in my life, i gotta find it in God. Now as a provost, life cycle is really boring. Just standing at the sentry, sitting at the desk.. Doing my duty and off duty. Its a routine.

At times, a little tiring.

I need to make much more effort to make time for God.

And now, of cos i'll miss my youth friends.

But this is my decision and i really have to stay strong and keep running.

Last night, i went jogging with Hua xiang, kenny and luan chun. At the last 400m + -.. I told hua xiang i was gonna choing. Open up my steps and just run. Towards the end, i was really out of breath soon, but i keep telling myself not to slow down, but the other side of my was telling myself that i was tired and just stop and walk 1st. As i ran, i pushed and just keep running.

The last about 100m, i told HX, let sprint.

I sprint with my all.

At the end, i told HX.

"Never slow down, once you slow down you confirm die 1"

At that moment, i was thinking of my christ walk.

Did i slow down in 2010?

That moments, i did. The times when i slack and being mis focus due to my laziness. I guess enlisting and serving NS i really a good time to train me.

I gotta be thankful for every moment of 2010.

There were really good and bad times. Times when things sucked, and when things seems so alive.

I have to look forward to 2011. No matter how much i wanna ORD. But i can still do something.

3 things in 2011.

-Be grateful and thankful for every event that happens in my life. (Stop complaining)

-Depend on God more than my own strength and wisdom. (Look to God instead of the problem)

-Spend every moment with God. (Make full use of my time for the kingdom.)

In a way, this is my new year goals.

God help me in this, i can't do it on my own. Sustain me till the end.

FIREPROOF

2010-12-14T21:30:00.002+08:00

Fireproof was super awesome camp.

I will say it was the best camp, although it would be my last and i had so little time in camp due to NS.

But i will never forget this camp because in this camp, i've never experienced God being so real and close to me in this camp.

I shall blog more tmr due to tmr that i need to report at 7.45.

Caoz.

2010-12-05T00:39:00.001+08:00

It's a relationship NOT a religion or simply a way of life .

Being a Firefighter.

2010-10-24T10:37:00.004+08:00

It's been 7weeks since is enlisted to SCDF already. Time really flies! Monday will my firefighter interview.

I had many concerns before i made the choice of going for this interview.

I knew that i wont be easy and the trainings will be much more for me.

But i've always wanted to be either a policeman or a fireman when i was young.

And now i have this opportunity.

During this 7 weeks, my journey wasn't really smooth. Have to sign extra, training being so tough. Being so tired. I barely have time for myself. Only once a week i have time to read the bible.

Now having to go to fire fighting course. My time will be minimize more than i am in PTP phrase now.

Yesterday during service, Daniel cheah gave a word of encouragement, and it really hit me hard.

It was from Matt 6:33.

³³But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

I was so much more reminded to seek God first before anything. I really want to.

But i have to pay the price and to be willing to pay the price.

God, i really really need you. God, lead me, control my mind, hands and feet. I am so weak on my own, i need you by my side. Only you, can remind me of why am i living in this world. I need your strength and wisdom. Lead me. Teach me to obey everything that is in your word and commands. I can never do this on my own. Hold me close to you God. I really need you. Help me to seek you and your righteousness before everything i do, before every decision i make. Help me to walk close with you, renew me day by day God.

Jesus i need you.

Amen.

Dan

2010-07-21T14:27:00.002+08:00

Hi blog. Another post i would like to say..I just got water baptism last 2 weeks ago!! I've finally been water bap and chosen a really cool name! hahaha!

DAN!!

Yup, for those we know me for long, u guys know that i've been finding for a name for my water bap! And i thought of the name Daniel for like 2-3years? It was the 1st name that has came to my mind. :D And i make it sound cooler and nicer! I choose Dan!

The meaning of Dan i very simple. It means, vindicated. http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/vindicated

Some one who stands up for justice and rights! I've always wanted to be a policeman. And this name is it! And also..http://babynamesworld.parentsconnect.com/meaning_of_Dan.html

Short form of Daniel! HAHAHA!

Having LG soon, but the plan didn't go as smooth as we wanted. New believer not coming with last min plans and i guess the other are low spirited.

God, use me to touch your people and empower them. Amen.

Thanks Josh!

2010-07-21T00:57:00.002+08:00

HI! Im back on blog. I've not been blogging due to my laptop's journal..haha. I just read joshua's card that he gave to me just now before drama rehearsal. His card was really inspiring and heart-warming. I've never receive such a beautiful card for a very long time.(I treasure every cards!) It inspire me back to reply the latest post i post last April.

To share the good new!! I got my laptop and i got back my wallet! Praise The Lord!! Nothing lost, money back, IC still in place!!! And this experience has taught me alot. And Joshua reminded me that. Really wanna take this post to thank him. :D Thank God for such friends! :D

Thanks man! :D

Romans 15:13

2010-04-10T00:54:00.000+08:00

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

Make a way God, make a way.

2010-04-09T23:39:00.002+08:00

Just got back home after a long day. I've lost my wallet today at serangoon mac. I realized it too late. Noel said that he saw my wallet laying on the floor under the table that i was studying today about 4.30pm or so. I only realized it only after NE LGL prayermeet, which was like 9pm. Its really shocking to me as i remembered not leaving my wallet anywhere. Thinking perhaps my wallet was left at Rachel's house as it was the venue for prayermeet. I was really anxious and scare of losing my wallet as there was quite amount of money and important documents like my IC and my laptop purchase receipt..

I was really worried and anxious. I ran to Serangoon mac and asked around, to the police station too. Finding no replies that i desired for, i felt hopeless and discourage. I prayed as i moved about.

Finally, decided to make a police report. At the police station, i was still anxious and angry at myself. Of how careless am i. As the laptop receipt was really important to me and it cost a lot of money. I wasn't my own money, it was my grandparent's hard earned money. I was very tired and messed up at that moment. I was still hoping for something to happen. Hope for every single person who walk passed that door the return my wallet. As much as i hope, it didn't came about. I was still hoping and praying. Hoping for something to happen. I was really messed up, my mind trying to recall where did i miss place it. The police report was done, all i could do was the wait for the police to call me. I ran out of the police post, and saw Donavan and the rest. They were waiting for me as i was holding Rachel's key. A little relief within me as i saw their concern for me asking how was it.

It was really heart warming as they offered to pray for me and comforted me. I was faith-filled and grateful for such friends. At that moment i tried again going back to mac, leaving my contact number and to hope for a return of my wallet.

It was tough, but it came to a conclusion that i still have to be grateful for what ever that happens and to give thanks in all circumstance.

Jesus lost much more than what i lost, his sacrifice cannot be compared to my laptop, it cannot be compared to my IC. He lose himself for me. For me, it was just self gain.

But still, i am still placing my hope and trust in God. What ever happens, happens.

Lord have your way, Lord have your way.

As long theres a way.

Make a way.

Have to prepare for Nafa admission test. 14 april.

2010-03-30T04:35:00.005+08:00

Today was rather a hectic day. Started off the day with my grandmother waking me up at 8am. She was worried if i couldn't wake up for registration for NAFA. Got up, rang Daryl and asked if he's prepared. He couldn't login into the web as the server was down.

So i suggested to him, to come over and do it. As he was on his way, i kinda ate rice, pork and fish for breakfast my grandmother had prepared for me. :D So sweet right? :)
Yup, Daryl came over and the same problem occurred. So Daryl decided to give NAFA a call and question them about the problem he faced. We founded out that the server was down. So we decided to meet up with Shi Peng 1st to get my photocopied application number so as to apply for my choice of course at NAFA later on.

We headed to town, to repair Daryl's addias watch strap, which costed $55. It was worth while, as it looks real new to us. The strap being really white and shiny. It simply just looks great.

After that, we took a bus to Clark Quay to return my uniform, and attempt to collect my pay after running pass pouring rain. The rain today was heavy, and i lost my beads as i was traveling. Basically, i could not collect my pay as it would only arrive the next day.

After all this, we finally went to NAFA and to register for our course. As we were applying, we found out that the course "Diploma in Theater" was actually, acting and drama. Thank God that we found out early, if not, we could have landing in a totally different area of studies. So we had to choose our course on the spot.

Daryl applied for "Diploma in Arts management" as i applied for "Design and Media". The little surprising thing was, we had to sit for different test. For me, such as, drawing and english.

Its been two years since i've studied for any english test or exams. This time round it'll be tough and rush as i have only two weeks to prepare for it. Still, i have to sit for an art drawing exam, to test if im able to draw and to show my creativity in my work so as to pass the test and to study in NAFA.

Ok, i serious feel damn weird writing this way, but i think it will help me in my test. Just did some assignments and i need to practice!!
I need some inspiration for drawing and practice , practice and practice on it. I dont think it's an once off thing, but i hope that i'll be able to cope with it this coming 2 weeks. :D
If we see this, please pray for me too if you'll able.
And so, i still have chances of getting in to temasek poly.
Just pray that i'll be able too. :D

God, guide me and protect me. Let my faith be strong and trust to be on you.
Amen.

2010-03-04T05:17:00.002+08:00

Blessings, thanksgivings, reminders.

2010-02-26T03:04:00.003+08:00

Just read through all my last post. Really interesting of how i blog and typed. My spelling is seriously horrible, vegetable. :D

But everytime when i read my blog, im always so encouraged. My child-like faith and strong faith in God. Just amazed me. Its weird. But it's like reading another person's blog.
Anyway, recently, got a blessing. I was surpost to enlist to army today! How crazy is that. But i got deferred!

I was last friday when i went down to CMPB to apply for an appeal for my poly applications. I went down on the 19 feb, and my enlistment is like 25th feb. At that moment of time, im like kinda late and because my approval of my poly will be on the march 8. So it doesn't work. It's later than the enlistment date.

Im alittle to say the long story. But i got deferred. :D But it was a process of faith and trust. Really prayed for this deferment. If not, i wont be blogging now. Ha.

Really amazed by how time flies. Now, to be honest, im really scared for my poly application results. Really afraid that i won't be able to go in.

Events made me wonder. Because i also applied for higher nitec, be i didnt got into my 1st choice! And will allow me to poly will such grades. I only got GPA2.81. And i can't even get to a course in ITE will my grades higher than the cut off point.

Seriously, wa lua.

Really afraid, but im holding on the God. Really allowing God to make the decision for me. I have to get my attiudes right before even going into poly. Etc, studying, early. If i dont get into poly. I have only deferment till april. Then i'll be serving the nation already. I want to apply for NAFA, be im afraid i'll not be interested in the courses and the school fee is really expensive.

Really want to place my trust and i need a much great faith to overcome.

God lead me.

Muse muse muse. ?

2010-02-04T02:36:00.008+08:00

Everyone is talking about muse. LOL. They are not bad. I think i missed their concert? LOL.

2010-02-03T01:24:00.001+08:00

Intentional Discipleship 2010

2010-01-18T03:32:00.005+08:00

Had the 1st sunday combine service today.
Service was great, with pastor Jeff's sermon and sharing.
The topic was about INTENTIONAL DISCIPLESHIP.
Didn't really thought about it till just now when i was browsing through some people who lefted church and twitter of people who talked about it and who were so committed to it.

Then i though to myself.
"What am i doing?" "Am i intentional in discipling people?"
"Am i living a Godly life?"
Then i just put those thoughts in my mind.
As i was looking at others.
I started to judge.
Man, i sinned to the core.
I repented.
Who am i to judge them?
Im far worst by judging them.
Then i though to myself again. "Why do i think so higher of myself?"

Conclusion came, "Im comparing myself to sinners". Me myself as a super sinner, judge another sinner? What makes me so great?
Only when i allow God to judge me.
Im a sinner. But forgiven.
This brings me to another thing.
God gave his live to save and forgive us.
Who are we compared to him?
We're no way near God.
No way near his standard.
Why God even wants me to disciple people?
Out of love.
He gives us life.

Point 1) Giving.

To admit, im a very stingy person. I save on almost everything i can. But i also spend on everything i have. (But for my own leisure.)

This year is a year of CBF for our new church building.
Honestly, i have been asking people to save and give, save and give.
Me myself, I save and spend save and spend.
I kept complaining about my adult fare, my adult fare. But the fact is that i could still give if i stop spending on non-necessary items.
It really stroke me and i thought to myself again. How can my people give their best when i don't?
And i looked at my email.
Man, am i a sinner.

I seriously need to stop and change.
From today, i pedge myself to save to my best and give, to the church and to whoever who is in need.
I'll give my 0.5 per month and starting NOW, start Intentional Discipleship 2010.

Sorry God for my sinful nature, help me to change and to constanly remind myself of what you have spoken to me.
Continue to use me God.
I need more of you in my life.
Grow me from this expreience and never let me go.
Teach me your ways, lead and guide me to your path.
Use me to lead your people to your path as well God.
Continue to do your work in me.
I yelid to you God.

2009-12-31T02:35:00.001+08:00

If you don't make a decision to grow or change, you will never learn/ start to grow or change. And decision is not just base on responding or deciding.
Its about reacting to the decision.
Its also not about what others is doing.
Not about what others say.
Its your decision.

Proverbs 16

1 To man belong the plans of the heart,
but from the LORD comes the reply of the tongue.

2 All a man's ways seem innocent to him,
but motives are weighed by the LORD.

3 Commit to the LORD whatever you do,
and your plans will succeed.

4 The LORD works out everything for his own ends—
even the wicked for a day of disaster.

5 The LORD detests all the proud of heart.
Be sure of this: They will not go unpunished.

6 Through love and faithfulness sin is atoned for;
through the fear of the LORD a man avoids evil.

7 When a man's ways are pleasing to the LORD,
he makes even his enemies live at peace with him.

8 Better a little with righteousness
than much gain with injustice.

9 In his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines his steps.

10 The lips of a king speak as an oracle,
and his mouth should not betray justice.

11 Honest scales and balances are from the LORD;
all the weights in the bag are of his making.

12 Kings detest wrongdoing,
for a throne is established through righteousness.

13 Kings take pleasure in honest lips;
they value a man who speaks the truth.

14 A king's wrath is a messenger of death,
but a wise man will appease it.

15 When a king's face brightens, it means life;
his favor is like a rain cloud in spring.

16 How much better to get wisdom than gold,
to choose understanding rather than silver!

17 The highway of the upright avoids evil;
he who guards his way guards his life.

18 Pride goes before destruction,
a haughty spirit before a fall.

19 Better to be lowly in spirit and among the oppressed
than to share plunder with the proud.

20 Whoever gives heed to instruction prospers,
and blessed is he who trusts in the LORD.

21 The wise in heart are called discerning,
and pleasant words promote instruction. [a]

22 Understanding is a fountain of life to those who have it,
but folly brings punishment to fools.

23 A wise man's heart guides his mouth,
and his lips promote instruction. [b]

24 Pleasant words are a honeycomb,
sweet to the soul and healing to the bones.

25 There is a way that seems right to a man,
but in the end it leads to death.

26 The laborer's appetite works for him;
his hunger drives him on.

27 A scoundrel plots evil,
and his speech is like a scorching fire.

28 A perverse man stirs up dissension,
and a gossip separates close friends.

29 A violent man entices his neighbor
and leads him down a path that is not good.

30 He who winks with his eye is plotting perversity;
he who purses his lips is bent on evil.

31 Gray hair is a crown of splendor;
it is attained by a righteous life.

32 Better a patient man than a warrior,
a man who controls his temper than one who takes a city.

33 The lot is cast into the lap,
but its every decision is from the LORD.

Word of God. Take control.

2009-11-20T00:17:00.003+08:00

Just prepared tmr's sermon D. Will be sharing on word centerness. I took time off, to reflect on myself and my group. Think of what if everyone really allow and obey and keep the word closly within ourselves. Knowing that the word is for our own good. To follow and obey what God want to say to us.
How different will our lives be?
How much more will you be biblcal?
How much more will you shine like a star?
How rooted are u by the WOG?
Stature is someone who is word-centered.

James 1:22-25

I don't want to forget God's commands and his word. I want to reflect and remember. To act upon my learnings. With the right emotions. With the right moitive.
Using the word of God as a mirror. Cleaning up the blind spots.
God, help me in it. Give me the disicipline and the courage. Most important is obeidence.

Gaurd my heart.

2009-11-16T00:24:00.000+08:00

Proverbs 16:17
The highway of the upright avoids evil; he who guards his way
guards his life.

My thoughs.

2009-11-16T00:21:00.002+08:00

Why.

For everything that happens God, answer me lord. Everything that is going on, tell me God. Everything that goes wrong, help me God. Help me to understand WHY. Let your word to continue to remind me and uphold me of the things that are happening and that are coming towards me and my people. Help me lord, for you are my help and teacher.

Faith.

2009-08-22T02:53:00.002+08:00

After all this things. FAITH is very important in our christian walk with God.
And knowledge of the WOG is also very important.
I wanna increase my faith and my word or knowledge.

How strong is your faith.

2009-08-22T01:53:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since i posted.

Today was great testing for my faith. So many question bombing towards me. I dont know why. I think God is growing my faith and strengthening me. So many different stories i heard. From non-believer and all.
My faith was not moved at all. Instead, im growing in faith. There is just this great confidence of faith in me that i cant even explain. Thank God for all this experiences.

Respect.

2009-05-11T00:08:00.001+08:00

Done doing a respect essay for school. Still stuck with my 3D. WHY DOES IT EVEN EXIST!!!!!! :O!!

Island in the sun. :D

2009-05-10T02:32:00.001+08:00

Motivation for 3D!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-05-07T00:56:00.000+08:00

Im stuck at 3D, my mind is blank..And all im thinking of is music. LOL.

Wonder Girls!

2009-05-04T01:50:00.000+08:00

I think im crazy over them. LOL.

Hero

2009-04-27T23:12:00.000+08:00

Learn to fly baby.

2009-04-27T22:48:00.001+08:00

Nobody :D

2009-04-20T22:56:00.000+08:00

LOL. I suddenly liked this song. LOL.

You gave your life for the undeserving.

2009-04-10T02:21:00.003+08:00

Thank you God for dying for my sins.For all my wrong doings. For all my sins. For all the thing i did. You forgave me. There is nothing i could say, but to say, Thank you Jesus.
If its not for you, i no longer who i am today. Im no longer complete. Because you had filled me. You have saved me. You took my place of death and showed your love on the cross for me. Im so forever greatful. Even though i have hurted you, broke your heart and fallen short of your standard. You choose to love me, help me and died for me.
How could i ever live without you. There is nothing else i could do but to give you my life and to give you my all. Thank you God.
Thank you God.

Eminem

2009-04-02T01:36:00.000+08:00

Dig some eminem songs. This were like my gen songs. LOL.
Love them last time. Find them nice and funny :D

Forever God is Faithful.

2009-03-30T01:35:00.002+08:00

Verse 1:
Give thanks to the Lord
Our God and King
His love endures forever
For He is good, He is above all things
His love endures forever
Sing praise, sing praise

With a mighty hand
and outstretched arm
His love endures forever
For the life that's been reborn
His love endures forever
Sing praise, sing praise
Sing praise, sing praise

Chorus:
Yeah
Forever God is faithful
Forever God is strong
Forever God is with us
Forever
Forever

Verse 2:
From the rising to the setting sun
His love endures forever
By the grace of God
We will carry on
His love endures forever
Sing praise, sing praise
Sing praise, sing praise

Bridge.

2009-03-29T01:05:00.002+08:00

LOL.
Im kinda crazy over bridge now.
LOL..
not the overhead bridge,but the card game bridge..lol.
The game is like in my head lar..lol..
anyway.
Had service today and celebrated dylan's birthday after service at the stage area. LOL.
Kinda of a surprise for him :D Yeah.
Then went to vivo for Clm.
We had a task of find food and buying them within our budget.
Haha. The CL team gather together and bought the food and all.
I was really broked today lar. Like $0 in my whole body.
Maybe if i can sell my bag away lar.. then can lor..but..sadly no..
lol..
Had to borrow from daryl. :D
We ate dinner together.
We kind of over spend? Haha..lots of left over. yeah.
Then after gideon's challenge and all. Me,rachel,kar chian and vivian played bridge!!!!
Lol..i kinda started.
4th time playing.
And it's the longest period we've played together. LOL. I think that is why im so crazy about it now. LOL.

Anyway. Having class chalet in the next 3 days..starting from monday. Wah..super crazy..but nvm.

Oh yar. I've been sleeping like super later this whole week. And waking up really late like 1-2pm.
Super tired.
Can't sleep.
Yeah.
Hope to wake up early tmr for work :D

Anyway.
Music for the ears :D

How great is our God.

2009-03-26T00:46:00.000+08:00

How great is God in our lives? Really, how great is God to you? How great God is in your life?

Questions to ask oursleves.

Long long long long time no post. :D

2009-03-25T00:06:00.002+08:00

Its been a while since i last post. Been really busy with school at that period of time. Test,phase test, and all rushed towards me. Leaving we me no time to blog,haha..Anyway! Im having holidays now! haha,i always have this code in my holidays. :D Holidays = Holy Days. hahaha. Cool right? :D Yeah, anyyway, im been playing sports later, i went to lie hao's house yesterday to stay over, to play ps2 and basketball. haha, i suddenly have a little more interest in basketball. Haha, maybe because of wei xiong teaching me how to lay out and all. Haha. Fun,yeah, and today i went home to get change and all then when back down to play soccer at serangoon. Wah..i totally lost touch of soccer lar. Like no control, cannot shoot properly and stuff. Really off-form. LOL. After that, saw lie hao...lol..then guess wat? We went to play basketball! lol..yeah.

Anyway. I want to really spend this holiday well and give my best to the group and God. Yar, marcus share the verse on sat really hit my head. That i am not living my life like im surpost to. To be salt and light to the people around me. To shine as stars. Because, i have Jesus in me. I reflected on the verse and wrote my application points to marucs. I really want to change, to be who God wants me to me. I know that im not perfect, but it doesn't stops me to be better right? so. Im gonna do my best. And not to just say, be to act it out. That when people see my life, they will see Jesus in me. I have not really set a really really good example in my life in school and at home. I really don't want to put up a show or whatever. But, to life a blameless and pure life for God. I want to allow God to move in me and change me. So that when to day of Christ returns to take us. Then i can declare that i have done my must to Jesus.

Philippians 2:14-16

14Do everything without complaining or arguing, 15so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe 16as you hold out[a] the word of life—in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing.

POP.

2009-02-21T01:23:00.002+08:00

Lol.I found i favourite sound when i was in primary school. LOL. I totally love this song till now. :D It's those good old days. :D FUN MTV!

EES 14/1/08

2009-02-14T01:17:00.002+08:00

I can't sleep right now. Man, im really really anxious for tmr's ees. There are 3 confirmed visitors coming, and 3-4 not confirmed. I really want to thank God from 0 confirm to 3. It's not much, but, at least 2 of them are from St.Gabriels. The school that im pioneering. I didn't really did my best in effectiveness, due to school, man, there was so little for me to do. But, i called,talked and invested in my contacts, calling them and really praying that they'll come to know God. Sadly, they're not coming tomorrow due to wedding, tuiton, father going overseas. So many reason, i fasted 2 days ago, a 24 hour fast. I really pray that God can still work through us now. To soften the contacts heart and really making a way for the contacts to come. Whatever it is, i really hope that the people coming will not PS. And that through the service God can speak to them and they'll enjoy the service. I prayer that those who are not confirmed coming, that God will soften their hearts and open up their hearts to come and make a way for them.

Lord, I'll thank you in all circumstance. Im praying in faith that great things will happen tmr and you'll remind me of the faith i have in you. Strengthen me , grow me , and use me. I really want to see your kingdom advance. Never will i give up, lord, im not perfect and i know that im not perfect. You and I know that i'll fail you. But you never failed me. Lord, use me, change me , mold me. Make me the person you want me to be and the group the group that you favour.

"God loves everyone, but God favours those who love him."

God, i want to love you more. Lord bless me and the group. The group must grow.

The group has been a straight line, no growth at all. Lord!! we need a breakthrough, we need a breakthrough. Lord, after the ees, get us ready and strong. Keep us strong in you, and giving more of our life to you. To take care of your flock like how david was faithful as a shepherd's boy. Use us and bless us. Change us and that we'll be a group that follows right after you.

Thank you God.

How?

2009-02-09T22:04:00.002+08:00

What to do?
What to do?
What to do?
What to do?
What to do?
What to do?
What to do?
What to do?
What to do?
What to do?
What to do?

Test is coming this wed,EES is coming this sat,im really scared and i really don't know what to do. I haven't study anything for my test at all. And i've not been listening in class since school started. Im really scare. Im only left with one day to my test. And 4 days to EES. And there hasn't been any good new from my group, only from chester. God, i really really need you help!!! If you don't bless me, im dead. I really donno what to do. I really really need help.

Im gonna spent my quite time, God speak to me and strenghten and encourage me.

Where,How, Chee Hwee?

2009-02-02T23:43:00.002+08:00

Where are you now?
Where do you want to go to?
How are you gonna get there?

God,you know where i am. God,show me where to go,give me a vision. God,lead me there.

The bag incident.

2009-01-21T21:21:00.006+08:00

Today we had caregroup!
its was a very crazy day for me..
you'll know..
today..
i ran away from class,(zao class)
to go for caregroup. :D
i have no regerts of zaoing class..
because i know i placed my faith and trust in God.
and also..
i know i learned something today and God really tested me.
before i talk about the bag incident..
i shall start with a testimony :D
on monday..
i had school...
and it was during break time...
and i found a wallet..
and after finding it...
i hold it on my hands..
and i brought it to class.
and in class.
i checked through the wallet and found a sum of $50 dollars inside..
my heart was like!!
woohoo!!!!!!!!
but...
as the lesson goes on..
the holy spirit prompted me..
the thought just came to my mind striaght..
"dont let $50 lower you integrity"
i really felt uneasy...
in the end...
after 15 mins of class..
i couldn't take it..
i ask my teacher that whether i could go to the toliet..
then i ran out from class to the office..
when i was in the office..
i walked around..
opening the wallet and thinking..
in the end..
i found a staff i passed it to her..
when i passed her the wallet..
she was like..
"oh..you found a wallet?"
"ok, thank you"
I was like "ARRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!"
lol..
but i know..
i did the right thing.
and thank God for it :D
ok..
now..
back to the bag incident today...
as i was saying..
i "zaoed class" today to come for caregroup.
yeah...
the caregroup was downstairs RC...
and they were like playing around with a beach ball..
those soft soft 1..
yeah...
then marcus came..
so we had to practice worship..
so we left the benches and go to another place to practice..
then went we finished..
we went back and see no one there...
cos we were going to see whether the key arrived already or not..
so..
it has..thats why not one is there..
so i went up..
and we had to start caregroup with worship 1st..
and i printed out the lycis..
but we had a change of song..
so i didnt take out the lycis from my bag which i thought it was in the living room..
and know that i forgot to bring my bible, i didnt search for my bag to take out my bible..
and after worship..was teaching..and i was like finding for my bag..
then i couldn't find it...
btw..
my sermon note pad..i didnt put it into my bag..
so someone brought it up for me..
so i found it..
but couldn't find my bag..
so i thought my bag was under someone's bag..
so i didn't really find it..
so i just borrow a pen from shawn.
after teaching my gideon..
which think its really good :D
i try finding my bag..
i was like asking everyone..
anyway see my bag?
then the answer is like "no?"
i was like..."OMG"
"dont play leh.."
they were like slimeing..
so thought they were playing...
but..
no...
they wasn't...
then i was..
GOOD GAME..
i was like "OMG OMG OMG OMG"
i check the whole house and everyway..
we walk through the whole blk cannot find..
i was like sian..
then..
i prayed..
i really really prayed to find back my bag..
after 1 hour...
my faith decrese..
i doubted to find back my bag..
i was like 50% faithfilled?
yar..
i doubted..
and marcus, chester, andy...
they said the same thing...
"maybe God wants to test you"
so..
i prayed more..
and having faith that i'll find it back.
till 7pm..
we still couldn't find it..
we went to the police center 2 times already..
and still no news..
then we went back to RC...
i was complaining...complaining and complaining...
because..
on monday..
i return to the wallet..
and i was..
man..God, why like that..
sian..
in the end..
i gave up finding my bag..
i went back to the police center to make a report..
as i was walking..
the police man came out..
and said..
"we found your bag"
I was like "!!!!!!"
i ran into the police center...
looking at my bag..
my heart filled up with joy..
my heart just overflowed..
i laid my face on the chair..
thanking God :D
but..
they told me..
check properly first..
so i checked through and found my ipod and my brother's handphone missing..
i was like...
OMAN..
haha..
but...
i still thank God for this exprenice..
thank God the person didn't told everything :D
he only took my ipod and handphone..
thank God he didn't take my IC,ATM card, books, and my BAG!!!!!!!!!
lol..
and i just carried this bag for 1 day..
lol
a nafa open house bag 2 years ago..
haha
lol..
but..
anyway..
God gave me this ipod..
so..
its ok even if he take it back.
:D
and my brother's phone is cheaper then $100..
lol..
so..
praise to God!!
you know..
i learned so much things today..
as i was waiting for 105 at the bus stop...
my brother said something really spiritual..
he said "you know why peter and the disciples and do so much great things?"
"because they doubt of 0% and 100%"
my heart was like...
"God"
"you are real"
through this whole experience..
God has boost my faith sooooooooooo much :D
and i learned that God speaks and confirm three times.
(the police center, maybe this is a test from God...etc)
and this is how God works.
and it totally makes no sense how my bag can be lose..
everyone left together, go into the lift together..and they were playing together at the benches,where my bag was..
so..
no one could like walk pass and grab it..and btw it was just beside nigel.
and my bag is in black colour and the bench is green.
its totally make no sense at all..
it must..and only must..
be a test from God.
(IT MUST BE A TEST FROM GOD.)
Thank you God. :D

School started.

2009-01-05T22:47:00.002+08:00

Its been a long time since ive post.
School just started.
and my result sucks.
my GPA dropped to 3.1+..
feeling kinda crap..
and i lost my phone and ez-link card..
and my crample pouch which i got from my sheeps..
sian ar...
and school is gonna be stressing...
2nd and last year of my ITE..
im really worried.
im afaird that i cant go to poly..
and i'll go striaght into army..
man..
and im poineering St Gabriels now..
and my timetable is not allowing me to outreach to the best i can..
and now i have school on fridays..
man..
and now im total stressed out.
man.
feeling really crap this days..
lack of energy.
haiz.
God renew me.

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-25T00:02:00.002+08:00

OH OH OH!
Merry Christmas!
haha..
just came back from North-east christmas party!
had a great time of eating, darma and carroling!!
:D
great time!
haha.
too bad i didn't bring my camera along..
haha..
but anyway..
haha..
this christmas is unforgetable!
haha..
because of the darma..
haha..
i acted like a total idoit lar..
lol
haha..
but it was fun
haha.
anyway.
not much to blog about..
haha..
working tmr at 5.30pm..
lol.
and i haven't finish writing the christmas cards!!!
lol.
don't worry people.
your christmas card will come!
haha.
satarday!
i promise.
if i didn't write to you..
sorry!
But...
here's a BIG!!!
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! :D
CAOS!

Heroes Camp!!

2008-12-17T08:58:00.011+08:00

Hey peeps!
just came back from heroes camp!!
time passes real fast..
anyway!!
just woke up..
lol
came back home yesterday at 3pm+
then i went to sleep till now.
lol..
total of 16hours of sleep?
lol..
i think there should be more out there who sleeps longer then me..
lol..
anyway,
back to heroes camp!
camp was great!!!
if only if we leg wasn't injured.
lol.
sian.
but..
never the less..
i gave my best to the camp.
great time of Praise and worship,teaching,games,food,fellowship and alot more.
God spoke to me greatly in this 4days 3 nights camp.
God really really moved me.
I've responded so much,learned so much..
but i want to apply them all.
i dont just want to know all this,but to act all this things out.
"Deeds without action is dead"
So,i really want to give my best after this camp and do my best to complete CG08.
So many characters of Moses,David,Abraham,Esther and Pual.
That i learned.
Humility,Loyalty,Faith,Courage and Ambition is what it really takes to be a hero.
Although Moses,David,Abraham,Esther and Pual weren't perfect,
God still decided to use them.
because God saw something in them.

Moses-Humility. He was a pride-filled man,when he was still a prince.
but God changed him into a humble man used him to lead a army of Israelites to the promise land,parting the red sea.Moses had the humility to trust and obey God.

David-Loyalty. David was a very loyal man,shepherd boy. He was loyal to his sheep pan,loyal to his leaders (King Sual) although Sual tried to kill him, loyal to his mighty mans and loyal to God. David wasn't perfect at all,but he obeyed,he stand out from the rest,God favored him. He had the faith to kill the giant Goliath. He commited adultery,but he repented and God forgave him and used him.

Abraham-Faith. Abraham was living in a bed of roses,happily living his own life(carefree). Until one day, God asked him leave all this things behide and follow him. Abraham obeyed,he brought his young nephew with him,God asked them to choose between two lands,a land of beautyful land and a dry and plain land. Abraham had the eyes of faith and his spiritual eyes were opened. He say how God can speak to him in that land. And indeed,God spoke to him. He came out of the tent and saw the stars in the sky. God spoke to him, he obeyed. Altought he was very very old (70-90 years old) and his wife (57-70 years old), God told him he is going to have a son. He believed and obey. And yes again,God gave him a son. But,God tested him again,to give up his only son. He obeyed with faith,and had faith in God. God used him greatly,making him the father of all nations.

Esther-Courage. Esther was a queen. One day,she notice that her people were in trouble and he had to do something. The only way was to confront the king and stop it. But,if you want to confront the king, you have to be invited. And if you are not invited to see the king,and you choose to confront the king,you'll be killed on the spot. Esther didn't had a choice. She loved her people. She choose to go to the king. She had great courage. In the end,she wasn't killed.

Pual-Ambition. Pual hated christians,he went around destroying churches,killing christians all around and he senting any christian to prison.But God saw something in him. His ambitioon,God made him blind and made him saw God. Pual understanded,believed,changed, was healed. And God wanted him to start his good work. God used him preach,share his testimony and change. Now,Pual wrote most of the letters in the new testament. He had a great ambition to kill,But God turned it around to become a graet ambition for christians all around. God used him.

So much drama,so much danger,so much sacrifice,but they had a good ending of the story. God used them because of their character. Not because they are good or perfect,but because they obeyed and God saw something in them.

Lord i pray that you'll use me, Lord although i might not be always humble,loyal,faithful,couragous or ambitious,i pray that you'll use me like this people of your Lord. To have a story of my own, and do great things for you. In your name I pray,
Amen.

Back to blogging :D HOLIDAYS!!! (HOLYDAY!)

2008-12-06T01:50:00.004+08:00

Long time no post..
haha..
the reason why was because...
i was having tests and exams..
man..
wednesday and thursday paper was tough...
alot of question that i've never seen before...
man..
hope that God can really bless my results and getting a 4 GPA again! XD
man..
i didn't really gave my best studying..
because i didn't had much time..
but i gave my best lar..
really hope that God could really bless my results :D
anyway...
started today by meeting up the coreteam and evluated on yesterday's caregroup.
that how can we improve the caregroup and the coreteam's standard.
took some time to talk about caregroup,
at the improvement points to grow and to change.
anyway..
haha..
i prayed for God to grow me yesterday morning..
as everyday when i leave my house everyday i'll pray..
so i decided to pray that God can grow me so my sheeps and the group will grow..
haha..
God is so fast..
haha..
in less than 3 hours..
God started his work :D
i believe that this coreteam is gonna grow..
and have to grow...
must grow!!
haha
yeah...
and now its holidays for me..
so..
im gonna grow too man.
it gives me more time to shepherd my sheep,plan for my group and to meet my people needs more effective and better :D
anyway..
lie hao and donavan just came back from mission trip!
from phillipin (i donno how to spell..)
lol..
anyway.
on tuesday i think..
haha
anyway
i think Donavan lost weight!!!
haha..
on wednesday when i saw him lar..
haha
today..
i think he ate back his weight!!
haha..
sorry donavan..no offence :D
anyway...
went for intercession ministry today again :D
on the way, i was talking to lie hao about the mission trip.
i can really see how lie hao's life change man..
he's a total different man now!!!!!!!!
man..
God is just so great and amazing..
just listening how lie hao speaks now..
its just so so so..
man..
even words can't explain!
Lie hao!!
you've grown!!!
:D
so happy for you.
i believe that gonna use you greatly :D
jia you!!!
haha..
personally for myself..
i have never went overseas for leadership conferance or mission trips..
im really impacted by lie hao..
really..
he's really a perfect example.
im just so amazed :D
im so going for missions man..
but..
really have to find the money and time :D
haha..
how that God will make a divine time for me. :D
and i haven't get water baped yet...
im still waiting for a divine name that i want God to give me..
so..
i'll still trust and believe and wait :D
anyway..
haha
im really bored with way i look now..
haha..
i havent shop for...
like..
erm..
5 months?
since july..
lol...
and my hair!!
lol
its holidays now..
hmmm...
hahaha...
thinking of a new hair style..
haha..
got afew choices :D
mohawk,botak,malet,bangs,bowl cut,or just dye my hair...
haha..
still donno wat to do..
lol..
i think im gonna dye my hair..
haha..
and try bangs :D
i tried it before...
haha..
dont luagh :D
lol
anyway..
i havent took any photos since that time i rollerblade..
haha..
anyway...
i lost my intrest in rollerblading now..
haha..
so if you think of buying for me 1..
no thanks :D
haha.
anyway..
gonna sleep already :D
cya :D
caos!

Praise you in this storm. God is just so real.

2008-11-20T22:56:00.001+08:00

Casting Crowns - Praise You In This Storm - Casting Crowns

HEY HEY!!!
you guys have to read this!!
and my last post too..
must!!!
marcus just wanted to send me this song!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOW!!!
this just proves how real God is!!!
marcus wanted to encourage me with this song..
but!!
i just posted and he just came online..
then he wanted to sent me this song!!
WOW!!!
God is just so good and real!!!!
Man..
How can God be not real?????
God really wants to encourage me.
Wow.
Im just so amazed by how God speaks and work.
Just so cool.
Man.
it just..
just..
so amazing.
God is just so real.

Praise you in every circumstance.

2008-11-20T22:32:00.002+08:00

Praise YOU in the Storm - Casting Crowns (live)
HEY!!!
its been long since i last posted...
haha..
really busy lately with school and project and assignments to finish.
Yeah...
feeling quite stressed.
with tests and exams coming in the next two weeks..
man...
STRESS!!
haha..
ok..
let me write them down...

24 Nov Mon: MFD Phase test 1. 3hrs

25 Nov Tues: MFD Class Test2 MCQ 30 question test.1hr ,
ESS Class Test2 MCQ 30 questions 1hr.

26 Nov Wed: ESS Pratical Test. 3D Assignment 5.

27 Nov Thurs: MFD Phase test 2. 3hrs

3 Dec Wed: MFD Final Year Exam 30 MCQ.

4 Dec Thurs: ESS Final Year Exam 30 MCQ.

haha..
BUT!!
As i was walk to the bus stop that i take the bus everyday...
i heard this song in my mp3.
I decided to hear the songs from casting crowns...
that this song played..
i was like..
Wow..
God words really spoke into my heart.
God really reminded me of praising him in every circumstance.
in the good and in the bad.
haha..
just recived a card from my sheep just now after shirley's shepherd meet just now.
really wanna thank God for this sheeps under me.
Im just so grateful for such great sheeps in my life.
Man...
i donno what did i do to get such great sheeps.
God is just so good!!!
the card really encouraged me guys!!
Thanks :D
I'll still praise God in this storm..
although its a tough period..
i believe God will bring me through and bless me.
I place my trust in God.
Yeah.
Thank You Jesus for all you given to me :D

God is Faithful.

2008-11-04T00:34:00.002+08:00

Just came back from WAM night.
Had alot of ministering.
God used me to speak to aaron about his life.
I believe that God is gonna grow him and strengthen him.
God is gonna be with him and me and the group.
Anyway..
Daniel Leow lead the song.
eh..
"Today is the day"
i think..
if im not wrong..
its just so nice..
Its just explains how faithful God is.
Im gonna hold to this believe and believe that God will pull me through this season.
Its gonna be a long month till camp..
LOTS of discipleing to do.
And LOTS of growth during this season..
For me and my group.
I believe that God is faithful.
And God will bless and strengthen me.
Me to Ahweeneer:"Just see how God will help me through this period".

This is Singapore!! HAHAHA,super funny!

2008-11-03T15:43:00.001+08:00

In Singapore, living in Highly Dangerous Building (HDB), most people have already gotten used to Pay And Pay (PAP), not only pay, you Pay Until Broke (PUB).

If that is not enough, somebody still Purposely Want to Dig (PWD) from you. What can you do if you are in the Money Only Environment (MOE).

With the current Mad Accounting System (MAS), you are forced to Pay the Sum Ahead (PSA) which make some people Purposely Owe Some Banks (POSB) and living on Loan Techniques Always (LTA).

When you are sick, you might be able to use the Cash Prior to Funeral (CPF) fund if you happen to be admitted to the Money Operating Hospital (MOH) on time. If you are in sure bad luck, you may meet doctor who Never Use Heart (NUH) to treat you and that would make you to Sure Give up Hope (SGH). When that happens, Call Home (CH), you deserve a better place to recuperate.

To help to ease the traffic, motorists have to pay Cash On Expressway (COE). If that don't help, the Lousy Tax Accounting (LTA), can always Every time Raise Price (ERP) on the road.

If you don't own a car, you can always go for the Mad Rush to Train (MRT) and get squashed Side By Side (SBS).

Me:"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"
LOL!!!!!!!
super funny!!!
got it from some forum.
haha!

New template :D

2008-11-03T15:17:00.002+08:00

Love my new blog skin? :D
HAHA!!
lol..
in class now..
bored...
anyway...
went to dylan house yesterday with daryl and ming jang..
haha..
fun :D
we played tennis soccer!
haha..
new sport!!
FUN!!!
haha!
CAOS!

Give thanks to God.

2008-10-31T21:37:00.004+08:00

Man.
I really have to thank God.
haha..
i just got the new for my camp subsidy for me and my brother.
We have..
$50 each!!!
man..
really thank God for such a blessing..
its been a tight year of money for my brother and me this year..
and usally...
every camp...
me and my brother only get $20 subsidy...
i remembered 1 camp i didn't even have subsidy..
my brother had..
wow..
thank God for the money that God blessed me and my brother with..
I cant work due to school..
my school holiday wont be near till the day before camp..
so..
i cant really work...
so really...
thank God for this blessings :D
anyway..
afew photos of my roller blading yesterday :D
Gabriel taught me :D
haha..
its easier than bicycle lar..
haha.
i learned it around 20-30mins.
haha...
with gabriel help and my passion to learn.. :D
haha..
its easy for me..
i like...
"gabriel...go around and around"
"you do i see"
"ok...sit down and get up"
then eventually...
i saw and learn...
then i tried...
haha...
i start off by holding gabriel's hand...
then balancing on my own..
and then walking and practicing..
then i started moving :D
haha...
FUN!!
now..
i have a new wishlist :D
ROLLER BLADES!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D
HAHAHAHA!!!
anyway...
i only fell down once!!
BUT!!!
on my wound!!!
OUCH!!!
LOL...
i got exicted with my speed...
then i tried to go faster and faster..
until i fell..
LOL.

Gabriel:"Noob"
CheeHwee:"STUPID" :D

Psalm 4:4, Eph 4:26

2008-10-31T00:57:00.004+08:00

HAHAHAHA.
lol.
ok..
i was really angry just now with some stuff..
but..
i was really encouaged by things 2 verse,
Pslam 4:4 and Eph 4:26..
God really spoke to be through this two verses...
man..
i was just very very angry.
and felt like killing someone..
but..
i repent..
yeah..
its easy to get angry..
but..
we shouldn't sin when we're angry..
we shouldn't respond negativly in the way we think and wanting revenge...
but instead wait for God for the best and the end results..
and dont sin..
and God really assured me in just an hour.
God is just so real.
I also learn that we must look to God when we're in trouble or stress..
and God will confirm speak and assure us.
The two verses of the day.

Psalm 4:4

In your anger do not sin;
when you are on your beds,
search your hearts and be silent.
Selah

Ephesians 4:26

"In your anger do not sin":
Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,

God,thank you for being so good in my life. Help me to look at things in a postive way of yours and believe that you have a better plan for me the have.I believe that you will do something out of the world which will benifit me.And i believe that you will bless me.Lord i want to follow your ways and i want to grow in your character.To be a better example for you,for others to follow and see.
Amen.

What a day...

2008-10-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

Ok...
today was crap..
i was angry,happy,angry..
its just so mood swing but its not..
its just the things that are happening...
super fed up now...
ar...
damn..
just so angry...
i think im going for a midnight run now...
to kill myself...
just kidding..
maybe...
on the second tot...
im too damn lazy and angry to run..
i just wanna ram some balls...
ar...
just so many things happened today..
anyway..
i learned roller blading in 20mins.
haha..
its fun...

God! you must bless freedom service tomorrow.

2008-10-25T01:39:00.003+08:00

Anyway..
i saw abit of the preparation for freedom service...
yeah..
its really good..
its a miss if you dont come..
its really good...
God!!
you must bless the service tomorrow!!
and bless the people who are performing and people who around playing roles for the service..
and anoint pastor shirley as she preach the sermon tomorrow..
open up the contact's heart...
from a harden heart to a soften heart...
that they will be respondsive to you and will come to know you.
God make a way for those who can't come..
and protect those who are coming..
God..
i pray this in Jesus name.
AMEN.

God is just so good and real!! God is a God of miracles!

2008-10-25T00:57:00.004+08:00

HEY!!!
today was a totally faithful day!!
ok..
woke up at 9am+
then when to punggol to meet yeong cheng and randy and the rest..
en ting's contact can't come...
man...
so i was like..
sian...
but!!!
yeong cheng cousin came,randy's fren came,(its a girl) i donno why also..
and afew of the fren's frens came...
monfort people!!
so really thank God..
anyway..
something really stupid happen during the soccer game..
so basically..
we went to punggol to play soccer...
near the punggol plaza..
yeah..
so...
there were some kids there playing soccer...
so..
i went there and asked if we could play a friendly match..
then they said ok..
but like abit scare scare 1..
then we played lar..
then...
there's this 1 guy ar..
wa lua...
attitude 1 sia...
like super act 1..
then play play...
in the middle of the game..
he kicked my leg...
then he said, "wa lua,kick people leg'
....
WAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I FREAKING ANGRY AR!!!!!!!!
i said to him...
"I GOT KICK YOUR LEG AR?!"
I GOT SUPER ANGRY...
he walk away while i was talking to him..
i tell you..
i wanted to jump on him and beat the hell out of him..
i never felt so angry for so long..
BUT!!!
he better thank God im a christian...
if not...
i'll really kill him..
but...
i the end...
i said...
"play a friendly match...relax.."
then he still walked away...
idoit...
want to die...
be after the game...
he cam up to me and said sorry...
so..
i felt better lar of cos..
but he stilled had that stupid face on...
SUPER!!!
ARRR!!
but in the end i toke his number...wanted to invite him for freedom service..
BUT!!
idoit..
give me wrong number...
really want to die 1...
but never..
1 thing i could learn is that when God is in your life..
you're under God's protection and love..
yeah..
so thank God that i didn't beat him..
if not..
i'll feel guilt for not showing a good example.
yeah....
anyway...
i had a new contact...
his name is johnathan...
yar...
so i invited him for tmr's service...
but he said that maybe he'll come..
so..
im praying hard that he will come!!!
yeah...
anyway..
today's Prayer meet was a good 1...
really prayed for the contacts and friends...
i wanted to share about faith and victory during prayer meet..
i didn't had the courage..
BUT!!!
thank God that im in the intersession ministry..
yeah..
i learn alot of new things :D
yeah...
like having the courage to share what God spoke to me..
(i donno how to spell properhsy)
lol..
and it was a total good and new experince for me...
yeah..
im amazed by we can pray for anything..
and anything...
yeah..
i think i've grown in my prayer life..
and i wanna grow more..
yeah..
i'll keep praying and grow...
to be a better leader..
it's still a long way for me to go and grow in.
yeah!
anyway...
God showed a miracle..
today's event was like wah..
the girl..
she is coming tomorrow!!
and she is from pei cia!!!
a North-east school!!
weee!!
AND!!
she's bring a friend.
FROM MONFORT!!!
AND wait!!
1 more thing..
today didn't rain during soccer!!!
AMEN!!
SEE THE MIRACLES GOD CAN DO?!!!
COME PEOPLE!!!
there no 1 else to believe but God..
i remembered what i prayed to God last night..
and its answered..
God is just so good.
so..
I just wanna thank God for all this things and i believe God will still make miracles still tomorrow morning!!!
and!!
I WANNA GROW I WANNA GROW GROW GROW! :D

Im gonna shout Unto God.

2008-10-24T00:06:00.004+08:00

Shout Unto God - Hillsong London

We lift God's name up!

Burden. Freedom service

2008-10-23T23:21:00.004+08:00

Man.
its like less than 2 days to freedom service..
i was so burden just now for the schools..

"that if there is no converts on freedom service...
we are losing 2 months for haverest...
and our gathering of contacts are wasted for this mega service!!!
This EES will be a waste if there are no converts!!!
come on!!!
you feel it???????
MAN!!!!
Are we gonna sent away this people to hell?
then we'll not complete CG08!!!
Do you see the stake of this????
MAN!!!
Lets pray and do something!!!!!!"

This is what im so burden about..
MAN!!!
i want converts for this service!!
i believe God wants it more than me..
IM DEAD DESPERATE FOR CONVERTS!!!
God!!!

YOU HAVE TO MAKE A WAY!!!
BLESS US!!!!
SHOWER US WITH CONVERTS!!!!
AND LET YOUR WILL BE DONE!!!
AND PEOPLE BOUGHT INTO THE HOUSE OF GOD!!!!!

Yeah..
so tomorrow..
i going down to punggol to play soccer with en ting's contacts with 2 of the unconnected believers..
so!!!
im giving my best to really talk to them and bring them for freedom service..
IM DESPERATE FOR CONVERTS!!!!
GOD!!!
you have to make a way!!!
so...
i pray for tomorrow's weather that it'll not rain although it has been raining for the past few days already!!
i believe that God will make a miracle!!
AND!!!
PEOPLE WILL SEE GOD!!!

School.

2008-10-23T07:05:00.002+08:00

Hey!
lol..
i just woke up like 30mins ago..
lol...
1st time woke up so early this year!!!
HAHAHAHAHA..
miracle!!
HAHAHA!!
anyway..
i got back my test results yesterday..
not really get back in a sense that i looked at it..
haha.
my classmate told me my score...
because..
i was late for class..
HAHAHAHA..
as usual..
haha...
anyway..
guess what?
i got 19/30!
haha...
although its not really a good score...
but i still thank God for it...
haha..
because..
i just bought a book from school like on last thursday and it cost $7.20!!!!
OUCH!!!
SUPER XXXXXXXX..
haha...
i wass only left with like 4 days to study?
yeah...
but i didn't lar...
haha...
i studyed on monday night..
yeah..
filled with stress..
i asked God for a open book test!!
haha...
but...
it was better...
haha..
my classmate,De rong..
had his own notes!!
haha...
so...
i get it lar!!!
haha..
i quicky got it and went to the school library to study!!
haha...
Amen!
the test..
around 3/4 of the questions came out!!
haha..
AMEN!!
i really wanna thank God for it.
yeah...
anyway..
school is really getting boring..
and my teacher is on some course or something..
so..
super sian!!
man..
and yesterday's afternoon class..
was a killer..
i almost wanted to sleep on the floor...
HAHAHA!!
but never lar..
so dirty..
haha..
but i have to be a example man...
to all my classmates amd teachers...
so today...
THEY ARE SO GONNA GET SHOCK!!
cause...
im early for class!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
CAOS!

:D

2008-10-22T00:58:00.002+08:00

ok...
i kinda relised i like to :D:D:D:D:D:D...
haha..
i've been :D:D:D:D:D
for like..
3 months??
haha..
actually..
it is to make myself more joyful and maybe bringing up a person's mood?
haha
i don't know..
but...
i enjoy it!! :D
haha...
anyway...
the test today was fine!! :D
It was a relieve that it wasn't as hard as i tot :D
haha..
thank God my classmate De Rong had his own notes!!! (A SERCERT MUGGER)
(if you know what i mean)
hahaha...
his note was awesome man..
haha
a great help for me passing the test!! :D
Pass is a confirm!!
haha
BUT!
I WANT TO PASS WITH FLYING COLOURS!!!
haha.
ok lar..
not so zai lar..
maybe hope for a 24/30 :D
haha..
pray that God will bless the results :D
just wanna thank God for aaron and en ting who gave me the card/paper of encouragement :D
and thank God for the notes! :D
and thank God for the test! :D
and just thank God for God!! :D
Just so thankful now :D
:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Class test and projects!!! AR!

2008-10-20T23:26:00.002+08:00

HEY HEY!!
ok..
im feeling exicted and abit tired.
haha..
donno y also..
anyway..
aaron just transfered under me as my sheep..
yeah..
so now..
i have 4 sheep!!!
man..
I dont know how am i gonna manage it..
but...
if its for God..
I MUST!
yeah!
To advance God's kingdom is a must! :D
And!!
i just had my Lifeskills test today morning..
i didn't really studyed for it..
BUT!!!
THANK GOD!!
it was open book test!!
AMEN!!
haha..
i donno how to study for it lar..
haha..
how to study for project management you tell me?
haha..
but really thank God that it was a open book test :D
haha..
tmr..
having another test in the afternoon..
its gonna be super hard..
its ITESS...
its a moduel on computers(windows,OS,DOS...etc.)
yeah..
im so toast for it..
i just brought the book last week..
scanned through 7 chapters only..
man..
hope it gonna be easy!!
and OPEN BOOK!!!
HAHA...
BY FAITH!!!
AMEN! :D
CAOS!
have to study tmr.
NO POOL!
AND BREAD FOR BREAKFAST!!
FINALLY!!
BREAKFAST!! :D

Church Prayer meet.

2008-10-17T23:29:00.007+08:00

just came back from church prayer meet.
yeah.
it was a mega God-touching prayer meet for me..
its was just praying praying praying and praying..
i really prayed for my heart to be changed...
to love people more..esp my father and mother...
(if you know wat happened to them)
and to be more faithful in the things i do.
i really want a heart that follows right after God and to love him alone.
Pastor jeff said this..
"God can give us big problems,and if we ask God to decrease our problems,he won't. But,he'll increase our faith!"
yeah..
this really hit my heart that i shouldn't avoid problems but to face it with great faith..
for example...
This guy ahweener is coming to my blog and commenting on God and trying to prove that God is not real.
But,although i really hate this guy,i still talked to him with love and care.
But,he doesn't seems to appreicate it.
And he doesn't stops.
But,i face this guy with great faith that one day,he'll come to know that God i the lord of all.
God is higher,higher then any other things and greatly to be praise.
Jesus is the way,the truth and the light.
Sorry ahweener,but im honest here.
and i really really hope,that you'll understand me,and i'll forgive you for whatever hurting words you say.
You might be a guy that really thinks about all this jew,jesus,God thing...
and u don't understand why does christians do all this things..
To you "stupid things"
but you'll know one day.
Let me assure you,you won't know until you try.
And..there might be some really bad christians examples around you that leads you to think that christians are just liars.
But,God created us as sinners,that we have to seek God for forgiveness,and to look upon his grace and salvation.
Jesus came to earth to die for our salvation. Every single human on earth.
If everyone is prefect,there's no need for earth.
Let there just be heaven.
Does it make sense to you?
I pray that you'll come to know God yourself 1 day.

Church Prayer meet.

2008-10-17T23:29:00.001+08:00

Aaron birthday!

2008-10-16T22:36:00.006+08:00

Celebrated aaron's birthday on care group!
haha..
it was a mega surprise..
haha..
got jun hao involue to help to surprise aaron..
haha..
nice...
anyway..
getting him a surprise gift..
haha..
by the whole unit..
lol..
and im like super broke this whole week..
man...
and i think im gaining weight...
LOL..
haha...
never exercise and...
im feeling super stress with school,projects and up coming exams...
wah...
madness....
AND I FORGOT TO FAST!!!
oh God..
i repent..
haha..
but...
shit..
i forgot..
ok..
i'll fast tmr!!!
LOL..
and i need to go jogging tmr morning...(provided i can wake up...)
LOL..
CHEE HWEE NEEDS TO SAVE MONEY AND LOSE WEIGHT...
CHEE HWEE NEEDS TO SAVE MONEY AND LOSE WEIGHT...
CHEE HWEE NEEDS TO SAVE MONEY AND LOSE WEIGHT...
CHEE HWEE NEEDS TO SAVE MONEY AND LOSE WEIGHT...
CHEE HWEE NEEDS TO SAVE MONEY AND LOSE WEIGHT...
CHEE HWEE NEEDS TO SAVE MONEY AND LOSE WEIGHT...
CHEE HWEE NEEDS TO SAVE MONEY AND LOSE WEIGHT...
CHEE HWEE NEEDS TO SAVE MONEY AND LOSE WEIGHT...
CHEE HWEE NEEDS TO SAVE MONEY AND LOSE WEIGHT...
CHEE HWEE NEEDS TO SAVE MONEY AND LOSE WEIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 years in church! :D

2008-10-15T00:09:00.003+08:00

Man..
time really flys man..
it feels like its just the beggining of 2008..
and..
so fast..
2 years passes by me..
wah..
thats really really fast..
thinking back..
i thought 2007 was fast...
2008 is even more faster!!
man..
and this 2nd week of oct!!!
BOOM!!!
2009 is coming in 2months and 2weeks time..
and CG08 is gonna end in 2months and 2weeks time!!!
WAH!
this is madness...
anyway...
in this 2 years in church..
is see my life and other's lives changed too..
i saw people who came, and lefted..
people came back..
people serving God,people not serving God..
i've faced TONS of problems in my life,studys,family,ministry and my own personal life...
It was God who was with me all this while...
God strengthen me and blessed me.
God is just soooooooo good!! :D
really thank God for people in my life...
and i pray that i'll stay close to God for ever and ever and keep on serving him..
i was really reminded about what i really want to do for God..
and its been a great period of time in church...
i see myself changing for the glory of God..
as sometimes..
i still break God's heart for sinning and all..
but God stilled forgave me...
and God still blessed me..
really grateful and thankful for have God in my life.
:D
Thank you JESUS! :D:D:D

Im Spastic :D

2008-10-11T00:29:00.003+08:00

1st time leading praise for Prayer meet was madness..
lol..
i was totally spastic..(I think)
haha..
but it was a good experience for me.
hahaha...
anyway..
yesterday(thursday)...
i was taking a bus back home from doby..
bus 139...
then i got in lar..
i was with my brother and ming jang...
it was super joke..
ok..
i took the bus from the mac house near doby mrt...
towards pit centre...
this guy who looks super duper farmilar..
took my bus...
so i looked at him..
and he looks like my primary-secondary classmate..
i used to be very close to this guy lar..
then i look at him...
then i shouted "AH BENG AH BENG AH BENG AH BENG"
like continueously...
then he looked at me..
he really really look like my friend..
then i asked him...
"Are you Wing Shen"?
then he like shake his head...
LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SUPER SUPER SUPER DUPER DUPER DUPER PIA SEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i was like OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!
me,my brother and ming jang like...
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
I FELT LIKE A TOTAL IDOIT!!!
LOL...
then i was like scared if that guy come and find trouble with me...
lol
he really look like a beng lar...
and looks like my fren...
and i liked called him "AH BENG AH BENG...."
haha...
crazyness...
madness...
SPASTICNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok lar..
but he never look at me lar...
haha...
JOKE JOKE JOKE JOKE JOKE...
HAHAHHAHAHA...
I HAVE BE COME SPASTIC!!
LOL.

Finally my NUM bag :D I want to be closer and closer to God. And more and more powerful in God.

2008-10-07T00:44:00.006+08:00

Gotten my bag today!!
yay my birthday present :D
haha..
thanks ming jang for the $100 voucher :D
really...
thanks :D
anyway...
i waited for this bag for almost a year already..
thats y i decided to get this bag :D
haha...
love it..
everytime i walk pass NUM...
i'll always look at this bag..
and nvr bought it...
lol
but now!!
i finally got it..
haha..
and im not handering my money well..lol..
been spending alot of money on food!!!!!
crazy...
today went to clementi botak jones to eat..
lol..
yesterday i went to geyland to steamboat!!
XXXXXXXX SIA...
go wrong place liao..
but it was to catch up with my old frens...
very old frens...
dota frens...
crazy frens...
..new frens...
lol!
anyway...
about my Ipod,Num bag and andy..
my Ipod is under repair now!!!
i mean...they giving me a new piece!!
AMEN!!
yay!!
and my NUM bag...
is here!!
and andy's father is not so angry now...
the father is just worry..
BUT!!!
ANDY HAVE TO GROW AND CHANGE!!!
(all this is up to date :D)
and...
last satarday...
as you know...
from the pervious postes...
i faced confirmation problem...
and..
andy's father called arron on satarday morning...
and scolded him on the phone and sented him a really hurting sms...
it really discourage me more when i went for service...
i was like...
GOD!!!!!!!!
WHY!!!!!!
WHY!!!!!!
WHY!!!!!!
then i was kinda emo and all before and during service..
really coulded go on with the day...
BUT!!!!
Pastor jeff sermon was a BOMB!!!
God really moved me through his preaching..
even when he prayed for the heart conditions..
I was like...AMEN!!!
God is good!
I really need God's power with me through this period of time...
for myself and the group..
there are some issue with the group now...
about andy and the coreteam...
we really have to grow...
God,please help us,including me.
bless the group and let us to grow in you more and more..
more mature and spiritual and closer in/to you.
we must grow!!
for myself..
i really want to be strong with God..
my relationship with my people and God.
and my school is reopening next week..
the more i need to be closer to God.
God let me be closer and closer to you.
And let me to be who u want me to me.
Let your power fall within me and give me the power to do your works.
Help me to bring people closer to you,anyone,anybody..
as long as im used by you.
give me the Wisdom,Courage and anointing to do disciple and outreach.
WCA to do DO.
WCA to do DO.
WCA to do DO.
WCA to do DO.
WCA=DO.
WCA=DO.
WCA=DO.
WCA=DO.
Lord..you have...you must give me WCA to do DO.
Amen.

Just waiting for God.

2008-10-03T23:40:00.003+08:00

I think im gonna sleep early tonight i just talk to God...
hope that God can strengthen me and assure me of why all this things are happening and all.
I'll seek God as my refuge and depend on his strength.
God,show me a miracle again.
I'll wait.
Help me to understand your way and not my ways.
That i'll know your plans and let your plans be my plans.
God,speak to me and touch my heart.
Change me as i want to change for you,
God,i really want a strong relationship with you,and that i stay close to you and i will be assured my your wonders and sercure in your love.
Amen.
And,i know that in every period of time,you're still God and you're still good.
You are still God whether its good,or bad.
remind me of this God.

Feeling really sian now.

2008-10-03T23:18:00.003+08:00

what a day..
just feeling very sian now...
tired+disappointed.
my ipod lcd cracked yesterday...
super sad lar...
wah...
it looks really very bad and im super duper sad...
and i just went to weeklocks to check whether the ipod could be repair for warrenty..
but it was closed already...
then i asked 1 of the staff whether it could be covered by warrenty...
the person said maybe not,because it's of misused...
then i was even more sian..
1)waste my time.
2)cannot repair.
wah!!!! Super sian ar!
not because that it is expensive..
but its a gift..
a gift from God..
it feels even more painful then buying it myself...
super sian...
super sad...

From there,i felt super duper sian already...
then i wanted to get my bag from NUM...
waited for my fren to help me get the bag i wanted at a lower price...
waited for him for super long...
in the end...
10pm he didn't show up...
super waste my time lar...
super angry...
fed up...
not only this 2 things make my day bad...
confirmation made it worst...
tmr...
only have 7 people coming for servie...
wah...
i feel like that world is really against me...
this question came to my mind while i was walking home..
i asked God this.
"Why is people stopped from meeting God?"
why?
I just can't understand it...
another question came to my mind...
"Is this calling for me?"
"im i really for this ministry?"
i just felt so sad and down when i got confirmation...
the world just feel so heavy...
Not only confirmation pulled me down...
i tried going in to my email for my picture to do my school work which i need to pass it up on sunday..
and the stupid email cannot work...
i cant go back to my emails...
and i didnt do 2 of my online assignments..
man...
the marks cost me a bomb to my results...
i just feel so crap right now...
so tired...

Birthday Celebration for me and sunny.

2008-09-29T22:27:00.008+08:00

Happy birthday! :D

LOL..
Celebrated my birthday today with NEB :D
haha..
it was a joke..actually wanted to celebrate sunny's birthday and suprise him..
i meet sunny at amk hub and then bind folded him and walk around amk and then in the end took a cab to serangoon...
joke!
hahaha...
really joke...
then walk to Rc and suprise!!!
haha..
celebrate sunny's birthday...
as we were praying for him...SUDDENLY!
Popper poped(thats sounds funny..lol)
it turned out to be a suprise to me!
LOL
haha...
then they sang happy birthday to me :D
hahaha...
quite suprised by them..
haha
then when we were eatting the cake..
I GOT CAKED BIG TIME!!!
cake after cake after cake after cake!!!!!!!!!!!!
wa...
i was like...
SIAN!
haha...
super oily and sticky...
haha...
but fun lar...
haha...
the cards were great...
haha..
and the NUM voucher were great too..
haha...
i was really impacted by chester's card...
haha...
i didn't know that i was so much of an impact to his life..
haha..
don't worry chester :D
It was worth.
:D
God really used me :D
I believe that God will use you too :D
haha...
Once again..
Thanks everyone!!!
really appericate it all :D
wait wait wait!!!!!!!!!
NUM BAG!!!! HERE I COME!!! WOOHOO!!!

Birthday Celebration for me and sunny.

2008-09-29T22:27:00.001+08:00

Sentosa and happy birthday Chee Hwee!!

2008-09-29T00:52:00.005+08:00

Photos of the day!

When to sentosa with my classmates today...
haha..
had a great time together at sentosa..
and sun tanning and playing with freeze-B!
lol!
haha...
took alot of photos with bi liangs cam...
haha...
anyway..
thanks to all who wished me.
haha...
really thanks alot!
haha...
here are some photo of the trip to sentosa to doby to somerset! :D
enjoy!
Caos!
And IM super red now!!! LOL!

Photos :D

2008-09-23T23:23:00.007+08:00

1 year of blogging!

2008-09-23T21:11:00.002+08:00

Woohoo!!!
its the 1st year anniversary of blogging!!
woohoo!!!
thanks blogger for such good service!!
lol..
haha..
anyway...
yesterday we had meeting at Pp mac..
after that..
me,marcus,daryl and donavan went to the playgroud to play before we have another meeting to plan CG...
anyway..
the 3 of them were playing amoung themselves..
but i was play with all the kids at the playground...
haha..
super cute kids...
lol..
i sound like a pedo...
lol
anyway..
its was fun..
asking marcus to sent me the photos..
when i get them,i'll post them..
lol
haha...
Caos!

Outing.

2008-09-21T23:57:00.013+08:00

Edited :D cool?

Edited.

Caught stoning by bi liang. lol

Wei hao cuaght..haha

Today went out with bi liang,don and wei hao.
haha..
came back home from nigel house in the morning then went to eat with my brothers and my father...
then went to meet them at city hall mrt...
they super late lar...
i was there at 2pm..
which is the time we were meeting..
they came about 2.40pm..
lol..
but..
its ok :D
haha...
we walked around city hall to window shop...
wei hao bought a berms from peni...
quite nice...
haha...
$23...
i feel like abit X leh...
don bought for $20 only leh...
scam sia...
haha...
wei hao...
anyway...
super tired..
then we from city hall toke mrt to somerset to shop again..
wanted to go to fred perry to see the clothes and the wallet!!!
arr..
but its for renovation...
sianz...
then we walked to hereen and shop again..
then got a tamaya race there..
lol
nice...
haha..
then walked toward far east...
then on the way we went to gucic and AX..
the belts..
nice!!
and so is the price.
lol.
haha...
then bi liang and wei hao bought mocca from Mccafe...
not bad leh...
quite nice..
im so buying next time...
haha...
after that we went to far east to eat subway..
FILLING!!
lol
shiock ar..
lol
haha..
then sent don off the work...
then we walk to cathay to play table soccer!!
LOL...
haha...
joke sia...
then we walk to PS to have a drink at carl's juior..
hehe..
i introduce to them my game..
and!!
haha...
we did some crazy stuns..
haha..
CRAZY! LOL.
anyway...
it was a fun day..
had a fun time together.
HEHE.
:D

Stun!

Stun!

F1! Fun and Fruitful day!

2008-09-15T01:02:00.014+08:00

LOL!

Emo guy on the left..haha

Funky guy on the right :D

Plain and boring.

Plain and boring.

IM crazy ok. :D

1st photo of the day. :)

Today was a fun and fruitful day...
yeah..
haha..
woke up today...
then did house work and stuff..
then went to just acia at doby at 3plus...
to eat and study with my brother,donavan and nigel.
cool..
i studyed quite a number of chapters..
still got afew more to go...
then studyed for around 2hours?
haha..
then when to addias to play table soccer as per normal..
with my bro and nigel..
then after that when to walk around ps and then walk to orchard area...
haha!!!
then we saw the F1 car!
then we saw alot of people taking photos...
so we decided to take too..
it was like 11.15pm!
lol...
we took 32 photos in 15-20mins!!
LOL!!
crazy!!!
but too lazy to upload all...
haha...
but super funny..
haha...
then we asked a holland man to take a few photo for us...
he's quite a nice guy...
haha..
then we took picture with this board...
got this two man...
i guess they are some famous driver or some pro..
anyway..
i find them looking very boring...
so!!!
i decided to put my cap on 1 of them..
and my bag on the other person..
HAHA!!
then nigel hang his cramper on the other one!!!!!!
HAHAHAHA!!!
super funny...
then alot of people look at us and luagh along with us...
haha...
so funny sia...
haha...
cannot be explained...
haha..
try it yourself!!
HAHA!
CAOS!!!

Mid autuum festival and ASSIGNMENTS!!!! ARRR!!!

2008-09-13T00:16:00.005+08:00

Nigel doing the fire.

My crazy face! LOL!

Stressed!! LOL!!

Nice!

Crazy stuns by me again.

Had great fun at ang mo kio park playing with fire and lantens...
haha..
nvr thought that it'll be that fun...
lol..
i sound like a deprife kid...
lol...
anyway...
im like going crazy over my school assignments...
today i went to school and did my work in school...
i had to scan my drawing and everything into the computer and then sent it into my email...
so..
i had to sent 2 files...

1.The image.
2.The scanned picture.

i only got the scanned 1!!!!
ARRR!!!
and i need to hand up my assignment on sunday night!!!!!!
GOOD GAME!!!!!!
IM TOAST!!!!!!!!!
~~~~~
Thank God!!!!!!!!!!!
1 of my friend got scanner at home!!!!!
crazy man...
so im gonna go his house tomorrow night after CLM...
and scan it and do it REAL QUICK!!!
crazyness!!!
im really going mad...
ARR!!!!!!
man...
gotta do my best and stop slacking around...
and i got two test coming up!!!!!!
AR!!!!!!!!!
1 on tuesday and 1 on thursday!!!
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!
i havent even study!!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!
i need to choing choing and choing!!!
Thoughts going around my head....(FAITH FAITH FAITH FAITH.....)

Time with God. Bless me as i can be a blessing to others.

2008-09-05T23:17:00.002+08:00

I think its been some time since i took a walk with God...
i think the last time was like 1 month ago...
usally i do it once a month...
just to take a time off with God and just talk to God alone by myself...
finding time to do it...
but...
im quite busy and everything..
maybe i'll do it on this sunday or something..
confirmation sucks for today...
quite disappointed with the results...
some of the new-believe are really in trouble..
and its a super tireding thing to do...
to really retaining them and follow-uping on them...
i ultimatally...
i think as long as i walk close with God and get reminded by God..
about why i even took up the calling from God to do wat im doing...
i think i'll pass the test...
i want to pass this testing period...
i really have to take time out soon...
not to play so much and do more effective stuff...
i know i'll be tired but i want to depend on ur strength O lord.
and i want to do what u want me to be and obey what u command me and have a heart that is after you.
i really want to do something...
something that i know its from your power and not mine at all.
with everything of me and i have,take it and use it.
use everything of me O lord.
Bless me as i can be a blessing to others.

Happy birthday Marcus!!

2008-09-01T23:22:00.002+08:00

Haha...
celebrated marcus's birthday today...
wa...
its 1 of the best birthday ever man...
its was totally great..
haha..
really want to thank God for such a good and wonderful shepherd,brother and friend...
got him a zara shirt and a zara boardshorts...
haha...
yeah...
its nothing compare to what marcus gave up for me and his loving life...
its just a small gift marcus...
u really deserve it :D
or maybe...
more than that...
haha...
yar...
so marcus...
happy birthday and God bless you! :D
what was said was said and i really mean what i said from my heart. :D
Woohoo! :D

School/Mcg.

2008-08-28T22:10:00.002+08:00

Today was a super tired day...
woke up quite late for my class trip to the SAF open house...
but i manage to reach school before the bus left...
i was raining heavily...
was quite fun over there...
have some fun with the planes and hot air balloon...
yup...
After that when to serangoon to play batminton and soccer during MCG...
man..
i threw some lousy attitude at chester and shi peng...
over just a soccer game...
i felt so stupid and totally regreted doing it...
i felt fed up during the game and arrr....
nvm...
but really sorry chester and shi peng for throwing such stupid attitude...
its been a long time since i did this kind of thing...
man...
its time i have to change for the better man...
chee hwee...its time...
after that...
went to rc with marcus and daryl to pray...
we really pray and pray and pray for the group and ourselves...
i really want God to use me greatly in order for God to use the group..
and i really want to serve to group to my best and really give my best...
althought school is really stress and everything...
i'll do my best to love and care for the group and give my best.
God reminded me and marcus of a verse as we were praying.
1 Cor 15:58

58Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.

Was really encouraged by God.
yup..
All glory goes to your name.

Can't sleep. LOL. I totally miss my hair.

2008-08-25T04:03:00.009+08:00

Man...
can't sleep...
really tired and tmr school start at 8am...
siao...
anyway...
i found my USB cable for my cam already...
so i uploading a few "OUT DATED" photos.
HAHA.
Enjoy.
I miss my hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARRRRRRRRRRRR!!!
Actually...
i think i really look good with my long hair...
haha...
OMG...
Self-praise...
cannot cannot...
sorry...
LOL...
i think im tired and i crapping...
LOL.

JUMP!!! (Jesus You Must Praise!!!) , Happy birthday Gideon!!

2008-08-22T23:31:00.007+08:00

Yeah...
just came back home for Jump concert!!!
it was GREAT!!!
yeah!
haha...
super tired...
2 days of mega sweating!!!
tomorrow still got house keeping and service and then NEB meeting and then CLM...
Woohoo...
long day tomorrow...
haha...
anyway...
celebrated gideon's birthday at rick's house today...
haha...
NEB gave him a ball!!!
haha...
anyway Gideon...
i shared what i said from my heart...
Oooooooooo Man...
i can't believe i cried...
Laugh out Loud!!!!
man...
im really really soft hearted..
i may look like a gangster,firce guy,big size guy..
BUT!
im really a very nice guy.. XD
haha!!!
anyway...
i really appreciate Gideon alot...
haha...
anyway...

Happy birthday

Gideon!!!!

gotta sleep soon...
if not i'll be late for house keeping...
CIAOS!!!

Yeah!!! My computer is back!

2008-08-20T23:47:00.003+08:00

Yo!!
haha...
my computer is back and it in tip top condition...
haha...
my blog won't be dead anymore...
tomorrow is gonna be CG!!!
leading worship.
prepared already...
its been sometime since i lead worship...
but...
will pray before i sleep...
haha...
wanted to upload some photo from my cam...
but too lazy too..
haha...
i think im trying to improve my way of speech now..
in order to be more gentle (not gay!) and more polite...
yeah...
gonna sleep soon...
tmr got school...
haha...
then friday no school!!
haha...
whatever...
ciaos!

WooHoo!!!! Ipod Nano!!!

2008-08-18T13:30:00.003+08:00

Yeah!!!!!!!!!
I just got a new Ipod Nano!!! :D
haha...
Its 8GB somemore!!!!
WooHoo!!!!!
haha...
anyway...
i got it from a lucky draw!!!!!!!
LOL!!!!!!
haha...
its a really long long long story how i got it...
haha...
lazy to type now...
but...
u can ask me when u see me...
haha...
anyway...
really want to thank God for the Ipod...
God really is good...
haha...
What a wonderful blessing he has given to me...
Amen...
I don't think i was just lucky...
but it was really that God wanted to blessed me...
So...
yeah!!!
Thank You God! :D

Ess Part1!!!

2008-07-21T13:49:00.003+08:00

Yeah!!!
Ess part 1 was great!!!
We saw 4 converts from my side!!!
God has really bless my group!!!
through our fasting,outreaching and hardwork!!
Thank you God!!!
God is good...
Part2 is gonna be even better!!!
we MUST HIT 15 AT LEAST!!!!!!!!!!
SA!!!
COME ON!!!!!!!!!!
LETS STAR-BURST!!!!!!!!!
AMEN!!!!!!!
God, retain the people and bless us with more!!!!
God u must give us more!!!!!!!!!!!
AMEN!!!!!!
30 for SA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AMEN!

Are u on?

2008-07-17T09:16:00.002+08:00

Its been long since i last posted...
school just started last week...
cool...
its been ok so far...
this half of the year...
its the hardest of all...
man...
anyway...
I got 4GPA for my results!!!!!
WOHOOO!!!!
Man...
its God's blessings!!!!!!
Thank you God!
and ees is in 3 more days!!!
wah...
we left 3 days to ees!!!
2 weeks to complete CG08!!!
2 weeks for Neb1a to hit 15 people at least!!
Man...
looks like there's not much time left...
anyway...
im really proud of my guys...
i heard wonderful stories from all of them...
really hope that God will bless us...
God must bless us!!!!!!!!
Amen!
yeah...
so..
i and the group are really giving our best!!!!
I really hope God can change my timetable...
it really sucks!!!
Monday:8am-6pm..
Tuesday:9am-6pm..
Wednesday:12nn-3pm..
Thursday:9am-6pm..
Friday:(the only good day):NO SCHOOL!
but...
it still sucks...
I trust that God will change my timetable...
Amen.

Oh...
i been reminded by the song "In christ alone"
yeah...
man...
God is good.

"Oh God help me to grow the group and God use me."
"Lord i don't want to depend on my own strength but yours O Lord."
"Lord i am desperate to see the group grow!"
"Lord i pray for all my people under me O Lord that you'll use them and strengthen them"
"Lord they'll serve you with all their heart and soul"
"Lord don't disappoint them and me O Lord"
"You must bless us O Lord!!!"
"I pray all this in Jesus name."
"Amen."

This is my heart cry for the group O Lord.
Help us God!
Romans 8:28

CAMP IS SOON!!!! IN LESS THEN 10 hours!!!

2008-06-09T02:52:00.004+08:00

Wow...
camp is near!!!
i'll just finish quiet time and i wrote card for my people who are 1st times...
haha...
i still remember the time when i 1st went for camp...
i was 3 camps ago!
wow...
time really flys...
i remember the card that sunny wrote for me...
haha..
its was touching!!
every camp..
God nvr fails to speak to me and move me...
so this camp...
i really hope God can use,anoit,speak,touch me...
that i'll learn even more...
althought im a careleader...
i am still able to learn and to know God even more and more...
and me closer and closer to God...
God!!!
I love u!!!
God use me in this camp to impact my people and use me too!!!]
I want to meet u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WANT TO
MEET
U LORD!!!!!!!!!!!

GOD!!!! YOU ARE GOOD!!!

2008-05-28T10:51:00.002+08:00

Yesterday..
doing my practical lesson...
i got a project to finish...
its a copper LED board...
(for those who know)...
my caregroup and marcus...
yeah...
God really blessed me...
i screwed up my board by tearing of 1 part of the board...
then for those who know...
once the copper is teared off...
it cant work anymore...
and my became the most ugly 1...
all my fren's board look super nice but still cannnot work...
and mine also...
but!!!
i let my teacher check at 1st...
she say no hope liao lar...
but...
she she only got 1 last way...
is to soder the iron WITH a wire on it...
it was a stupid idea...
but i was really desprate...
i cannot fail...
i need to pass up to my teacher by thursday...
and i got no practical lesson on wed...
then im toast...
but!!
i prayed and prayed...
that i really want to be a salt and light for God not myself...
so as i soder my project and prayed...
then!!!
i let my teacher test it...
then...
IT WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AMEN!!!
WHOOHOO!!!!
i was really overwlem!!!!!
God is really my savior!!!!!!!!!
THANK YOU JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!
:D:D:D

IM STILL DOWN WITH FLU!!!!!!!
D:

And im havin a test later at 1.30pm...
have to study :D
wish me luck!!!!
(finger crossed)
:D

God u r with me!

Who am i

2008-05-27T14:58:00.004+08:00

I really love this song...
thinking of singing it for talent time...
but!!!
IM SICK!!!
lol....
anyway...
enjoy this song!
im dieing...
my flu is really killing me...
D:
:(

143 Who Am I - Casting Crowns

Casting Crowns -
Who Am I Lyrics

Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.

Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wondering heart.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.
Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours. I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again

Who am I?
That the voice that calm the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am.
But because what of you've done
.Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
And you told me who I am.
I am yours.

Not because of who I am.
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done.
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow.
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord you catch me when I'm falling,
You told me who I am.
I am yours. I am yours.

Whom shall I fear? Whom shall I fear? 'Cuz I am yours. I am you

HELP!

2008-05-27T09:42:00.002+08:00

Man...
im sick now...
having sore throat and flu...
feeling mad now...
i dont usally get sick...
but now...
im really really busy with school and Camps...
Church camp and Ne camp...
IM GOING CRAZY!!!
my flu is killing me!!!!!!!
Yesterday was a super mad day...
my school end around 3.30pm ...
then i went to PP mac to meet my coreteam and talk about wat i learned...
being DESPRATE!!!
Desprate to see SA grow!!!
Desprate to see the Great commission complete!!!
Desprate to serve God!!!
Really being Desprate to do thing for God....
to run the race and not just watch the race...
And yar...
after meeting the coreteam...
i went down to doby to attend to mega event camp com meeting...
until 8pm...
after that i went down to rc to have a closing cermony meeting...
wa....
i and alvin plan the night games and wat to buy...
man..
later...i have to buy the games items...
and worst!!!!!!
My TEST ARE ON NE CAMP!!!!!!!!!
SIAO!!!!!!!!
that means...
i have to study today!!!!!!
wa...
crazy...
and on NE CAMP!!!!
GOD!!!!!!!!!! U HAVE TO HELP ME!!!
PRAY AND PRAY AND PRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
And so far...
i havent eat meat since satarday :D
Feasting on meat for the group!!!
and myself....
yeah...
God u have to help me!!